que sera. what will be, will be.

ok
looks like the NS song i posted in prev post is not that innocent aft all.
have been updated by my friends.
found out there are lots more paragraphs which are perverted BUT
i rate them R21 so they shall not be posted on my lovely innocent blog haha!
i knew it! ns guys cannot be pure! =P
chao recruits! =X





anw last night he called me to tell me he has a scheduled pilot test.
his dream is to become a pilot.. RSAF.
well as u guys all know..
even if we are living in a technologically advanced world..
piloting is still not considered a very safe career.
cos jus like in those movies we watch,
fighter planes either get bombed in war ( aka Pearl Harbour)
or the pilot jumps off and screams, "no chute! no chute!" (aka Iron Man)
plus.. lotsa time spent training overseas.
and obviously, from all the stories i've heard,
pardon me for crudeness and stereotyping,
but most pilots screw around in different countries
(aka Miss Saigon if you've seen the play. I watched it and it's like ='(
lemme tell u the story. it's this airforce American (if im not wrong) dude who went Saigon during the Vietnam War. This dude has a wife, but somehow he got involved with this girl in Saigon, and got her pregnant. Sigh, guys. Then when war was over, he had to return to native land and his wife, and the girl pregnant. In the end the girl gave birth, but felt the American guy could provide a better life for the child or something. Because she knew she is too poor and also heartbroken that the guy had to leave. Then she passed the child to him and he just left like that. And she killed herself. Sad and silly of her. )

back to the point.
it is ZQ's dream, i will definitely respect it and support him..
sometimes i feel what i crave for is stability in a man..
if he really goes zooming around over the world in a plane,
we all know he ain't really gonna be here for me..
and thinking negatively.. i dunno if i'll be able to hold on.
will try my best of course..
i'm afraid. but proud of him.
he's chasing his dreams!
1 step closer to his dream..
:)
dear i love you..
if it's meant to be, it will be i guess..
que sera.
what will be, will be.

tdy i went with YL to dentist!
ohmann the pain of braces =(
i feel painful lookin at her twisting around in pain.
thank god i have an ok set of teeth and dun need braces.
now to pray that i wont hav wisdom teeth to extract
cos 1) damn pain. still rmb my big sis survived on milk for a week after extracting hers haha.
2) saw the price list for extracting wisdom teeth today. 1 tooth $400! daylight robbery!
so pls let my wisdom teeth be fine and not grow into my other teeth and cause me pain.

and recently ive been becoming a bookworm again.
reading books to pass my time!
any1 has any good recommendations? :)

and i love books.
they really bring you to other realms,
open your eyes to new points of view,
send a shiver down your spine,
or make you laugh/cry..

how i long for the passionate love i have read about,
the strong bonds of kinship/friendship,
to live the lives of others just for a day to feel how it's like!
imagine being an american african, free to ride on the wide green fields on your horse called raven,
or serving as a spy who has to send radio messages during war, and falling in love with the soldier you sent messages to and in the end marrying him.. (awww~~~~!!!!)
things like that..
or maybe even to experience magic, in any form! i.e teleporting a bottle with your eyes to hit your enemy and then acting blur or even better, trample into some magical realm where you are the chosen one!!!

if i can choose what i wana be in LOTR..
will be an ELF!
cos they are so light footed, magical and clean..
and a BIG plus factor.. LEGOLAS..
swoons

*daydreams*