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Tuesday, May 20, 2008

every ending is a new beginning =)

wordy post--


today is the 20th of may..
may i say that.. it has been 1 yr 9months that zq n i have been romantically involved!
hahaha aren't we the weirdest couple ever..
we are forever counting the months.
well that spices up the relationship, no?
never reli tot i could like a guy for so long.. (i know it's not very long )
my past relationships lasted 6months and below.. haha.
wonder if this is love? guess i'll not know for sure yet now..
my sis told me you'll know love when you look back at it.
=/

oh and did i mention, i hate NS!
i take back all words of my interest in joining NS from my previous posts!
cos apparently zq's batch of army dudes do not have 2 weeks of free time after POP.
maybe even less than 1 week.

:( :(

so irritating! n disappointing! was plannin to go genting or something?!
sigh. OH BROTHER.
looks like mus stick to sentosa alr. (-.-)"



tdy..
YL n i withdrew from NYP PHYSIO.
(but tml we still gotta head down to school to hand in the dumb pink form and oso.. MCGRIDDLES! some1 tot was MCRIDDLES ahahah NOOB =X )
OK im feeling quite emo and sad cos there goes 1k down the drain.
1k!! it's sucha lump sum of money. think about how many KBOX sessions n how many foods and clothes we can buy with that.
and also, just when im starting to feel a little attached to my class..
the letter arrived.
sigh. if i didnt sign up for physio,
i would be 1K richer.
plus for university education, i need to take LOANS from the govt cos my family can't afford to pay for me.
and i wasted 1K just like that with a snap of my finger.
1/6 of 1 yr of university fees!
*you're looking at an extremely poor woman here*

at least in physiotherapy i learnt some new stuff and made new frens
but still.. 1k!!! *heartache*
shall call it ten $100 cos that way it seems like a smaller sum.
cos $100 seems to be more easily used up than the lump sum of 1k.
if u get wad i mean.

also kinda worried i may regret going to NUS to study..
what is science isn't my truly desired field?
a mixture of fear and excitement..
never wanted to live a life with regrets or remorse,
but i regretfully proclaim that within the past 2 years i have acculmulated 3 big regrets:

1) not being by my dad's side when he was breathing his last (i will never get over this regret)
2) not being able to fend for my 3 rabbits and being forced to send them to the SPCA ( will never get over feeling like a lousy piece of shit)
3) not taking triple science for the O levels ( though biochem double science turned out fine but i only understood why every1 wanted triple science when i went to NTU open house.. because most engineering courses require at least O level Physics. i feel like a stupid piece of shit but NVM. )


hope that im not screwing myself up by going into science field..
but well u'll never know until you try.

as they always say,


dance like no one is watching
sing like no one is listening
love like
you have never been hurt before
work like u didnt need the money
live
like there is no tomorrow


these will be the words i'll try to live to everyday.

i don't want any regrets anymore!!!

P.S.
today..
I BUILT LOTSA CASTLES IN THE SKY.
i know YOU know what i mean.
hahas.
people pls comment me too!
=)
show ur concern for me k?
wahahas =)


ohyaa sudd rmb somting funny..
my ns fren jerome's response when i asked how his love life is,
" me, my rifle and myself"
haha!! cute response.

and also this NS song ZQ was singing to me,
i dun reli rmb the real lyrics but it goes someting like that,
i ask my girl, to take a walk
to take a walk, down orchard road
past centrepoint and mandarin
we stop for lunch at mcdonalds
ate mcspicy and mcflurry
we shared a cup of lemon tea
i hold her hand look into her eyes
i ask my girl to be my valentine's

(and continued, courtesy of QQ who is also an armydude:)
i call her home, 4get 4get
her mom pick up, say she's not home
i want to cry, i want to die
i ask myself, what's going wrong
i cannot sleep, i cannot eat
i tink all day, ask her be my wife

ok and the 2nd part is glitched cos QQ DOESNOT RMB.
hahaha!
i didnt noe ns guys r so sentimental.
when ZQ sang till the last sentence's ...ask her..
i tot he would continue with ask her to knock it down
or somting .

ok tt's all..
bB!!!!!!!

6 comments:

Ling said...

testing

Ling said...

hahahaha ok decided to show some love to you by commenting =P anw stop building castles hxx u silly noob! id rather much have SWEET dreams(which come true) =)

Qq said...

SHOWING CONCERN IN PROGRESS

ur castle nice de ma? I build fortress often =)

Anonymous said...

hihi. here's your comment. and concern too.

i'm feeling a bit poetic LOL.. so i'll write my concern in the form of a poem. thus here's another poem for you and ZQ.


~~
Marching down the road ZQ sings,
"I wanna be your feathery wings"
Fly you around and buy you things,
Definitely not forgetting the couple rings.

ZQ would want to bring you to ice skating,
Have a sunny afternoon out sun-tanning.
Along the beach you'll be happily walking,
And each other's hands is what you'll be holding.

Sitting down together over a cup of drink,
you might begin to wonder and think,
time passes so fast like an eye-blink,
will everything change too fast and fly out of the rink.

calm down slow down and give yourself time,
temporarily disregard the number of times the clocks may chime.
cos 2 years is slow but 2 years is fast.
all you need is just a little trust.
pray to god and heaven if you must,
having faith in him is what will make your relationship last.
let your worries and doubts turn into dust,
let the winds blow them away in a gust.

Hold onto your faith because that is just.
and as soon as the 2 years has past,
the time you'll have will be vast.

~~

hope you like the poem :D

Jensen said...

i sent my comments but your main page still says "3 comments".. hmmmm..

Anonymous said...

haha my 1st few comments! utterly touched. thank you !
and thx for the sweet poem jensen. nice of ya :D