Chloe's

2012-02-07T15:44:00.001+08:00

malaise

c u p c a k e s

2012-01-20T14:56:00.000+08:00

"Keep chasing your dreams, no matter hard they are to catch. Eventually they will trip."

Read this somewhere. Haha -_-.

Well, point is: Nothing's perfect, and don't give up on your dreams. Nothing is impossible. (:

I know there are quite a number of people still reading this space.

Thank you for all of your kind words and concern. I will remember them and safe-keep them in a corner of my heart ♥ I am feeling better definitely, gradually.

And yes...

I baked C U P C A K E S !

This was in October last year (2011). LOL my blog is back-dated I tell ya.

Agenda: For my manager Emily's wedding
Idea: Stemmed from Stella, the colleague I'm closet to
Location: Serangoon, Stella's house

Chio cupcakes!

That's Stella.

The first batch.

The cupcakes kinda overflowed and we had to 'trim' the top away.

Experimenting with Nutella.

My YIN-YANG cupcake. Cute?

Stella's soft toy, Bu, enjoying the YIN-YANG cupcake.

Yummy cookies Stella's dad baked- he was a pastry chef in a Singapore hotel previously. Famous amos standard!

Colleague, Rina, hard at work.

Colleague, Sabrina, hard at work.

Final stage: Wrapping

All wrapped up!

So I think I can bake!

11012012

2012-01-11T02:57:00.000+08:00

Hi all.

Another essay. Obviously I'm in a pensive phase of life.

Whoa 2.32am. Just got jolted awake cos of something *Y*. Anyway work starts at 12pm tomorrow so it's ok that I'm awake. Work right now... In Singaporean term, it's 'shiong'! And it's not 'shiong' as in challenging like doing something which makes you learn new skills. I'm fine with that. It's more of like repeating something mundane over and over again at a very increased magnitude. Ok if you're reading this you probably don't know what I'm talking about unless you're my colleague.

So ladies and gentlemen. Enjoy your school days because of the freedom! (: Humans are such contradictions. It's funny how when we're young we want to grow old and when we're old we want to reverse the clock.

Ok and so before I go to bed I decided to do a shoutout to the people in my life who have made this situation I'm in brighter and more optimistic. I'm stuck in a life circumstance where my patience is being tested and grinding my teeth through the unhappiness and uncertainty I'm feeling now. My least favourite feeling in life - uncertainty. Seriously try to avoid it. It's no good.

Here's my shoutout.

To my sis. Who's sick and feeling so sad yet so strong like my mother.
She told me to view her situation not with anger at life, but as a lesson.
Love her. Wish I never have to lose her. Never.

To my mom. Who's forced to lose her husband by life. And now facing a potential loss of her favourite daughter. She cried. She told life to take whatever it wants to. She gets upset.
But she's so resilent and so calm and collected when the going gets tough.

Next are my friends around me. Including Mr P. You guys know who you are. Thanks for the kind words of encouragement.

I use the phrase 'making lemonade out of lemons life deals to me'. My favourites from someof you are 'take it that life is adding bittergourd to fish soup' and some even gave me chocolates to cheer me up because it contains serotonin. Haha. Thank you all. I feel like dying but in the midst I smile.

I have so much to learn. I wish I never have to go through this phase, these feelings but sadly life chose me. Fat hope of leading a smooth sailing life. So many things have happened since I was born. More than the average person I think. Lol -_- makes my life journey colourful with a pinch of pain -_-

Wish I was a Californian girl with no worries or blues. My situation is not the worst, guess I should give thanks for that. (:

God bless everyone.

P.S I typed these on my iphone. Niceee.

Life...

2012-01-10T01:37:00.000+08:00

I love Instagram. Me and my big nose haha.

Life...

Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness.
Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.

/Unknown

Voici mon secret. Il est très simple: on ne voit bien qu'avec le cœur. L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux.
/le petit prince

Let me learn; let me grow through the pain and lessons of life.
It'll not be easy, but I believe that I shall emerge, stronger than ever; more mature than before.

✌

Good night.

Whew

2012-01-07T01:55:00.000+08:00

Today I received a notification on my iPhone.

"POSB and DBS customers rush to check..... etc etc"

I laughingly told my colleagues. "is this for real? hahaha"

One of my colleagues then replied, "Sabrina (another colleague) really got hacked. She lost $500."

Reaction of my other colleagues, including myself: *jaw drop*

Thought it was just a very small issue but apparently it affected someone of pretty close range to me. Anyway just checked and I wasn't affected. Whew. Gonna drag my mom over to the comp now to check.

Good night!

Post-mortem of 2011

2012-01-02T01:27:00.005+08:00

Happy new year. May 2012 be a great year for you. And for me too.

(:

I had a good countdown to the new year and the above picture was snapped with my iphone. It's nice to view fireworks once in awhile.

So here's my post-mortem for the past year.

2011... The first half of the year was pretty good... But things seemed to unravel and go down-hill in the second half of the year.

One major milestone in 2011 and in my life was my graduation. It signified the end of school life and the entry into adulthood.

Milestone: Entry into workforce

Pros: -Financial independence and a fatter wallet/ bank account; to be able to give my mom money and also contribute to family holidays and household funds. -The exposure to the real world; we will all have to grow up someday.-Working has definitely broadened my perspective on issues and exposed me to different experiences; I'm learning everyday

Cons:-Loss of freedom; with a job comes responsibilities and deadlines-Envy towards friends who are still schooling; because they still have plenty of free time-Insatiable pining for public holidays; because work-life signals the death of school holidays

I'm still in the transition stage of arrested adulthood. Some responsibilities have come into play for me, but not all. I'm not spoilt, but definitely pampered. All my life I've had a maid to take care of me, never had to do house chores, never had to wake up early. Although I'm working now, my mom still pays my hand-phone bills for me. I'm the third daughter of the family, so there is minimal pressure on me having to rush into the work field to help support the family. I'm lucky.

On hindsight, after 6 months of work, I feel I'm still young and too sheltered. I definitely have lots to learn and I hope I'll mature into a better person. Right now, I'm still getting used to the transition into work life. I know it's been 6 months, but I still feel envious of my friends who are having their school holidays. I guess I'm mourning the past phase of life but moving forward into this new phase.

I'm an emotional person. Sentimental too. I prize my relationships with others and that's why I really love my family, partner, friends and my pets. It's probably not good because when things happen, I'm really affected.

One issue which has been bothering me in 2011 is the diagnosis of my sister's illness. I'm close to her and the illness doesn't have a cure currently.

When I first found out about the news I was really down. Especially so when it is linked to the illness my father died from - neuro health issues. I had to keep the health issue from my mom and brother who are living with me in the same house because one was too old and one was too young to know and we didn't want to affect them. And when both sisters had something to say and didn't want to affect each other, both will tell me depressing stuff individually.

Anyway my mom found out a few days ago and appeared to be okay, but she just broke down and cried just now. On new year's day. She told me she took extra pains to take tonics and to take care of herself during labour for all of us and my sister was the healthiest and pinkest of us four siblings. She told me she would rather bad things happen to her than any of us. She told me she has never done evil things, and why must things like this happen to my father and my sister. She told life to take it all away, whatever it wants to, since life has been taking everything away anyway. All the while she had been crying; and not the silent type of crying, but painful crying with sounds. I seriously felt terrible having to hear my mom cry, sitting next to her and yet not being able to stop her tears.

To be truthful my mom has really had a hard life. So many things have happened to her, I can't even type them out. ): She lost my father, and now my sister who is her favourite child. She loves all of us, but my sister is the closest to her because their personalities match and they get along very well with each other.

I'm really sad. There's this pain in me because I know it's kind of like a death sentence my sis had been sentenced to. Right now we're just waiting for the blood test results to see if the illness is hereditary- if it is, I'll have to go for further check-ups with my siblings because we may be inflicted too. But thing is, my sister is already affected, and hereditary or not, she is ill. As I'm typing this out it seems surreal. I don't know. It's like a joke. First my father and now my sister.

I feel depressed. There's this pain in me and I'm sure my sister herself and her husband and my mother must be feeling much worse. But this pain in me is enough to make me understand why people would want to kill themselves. It's really painful. I definitely won't commit the act of killing myself but I understand what drives them to such actions. And to think I used to think it was crazy of people to kill themselves. I tried not to cry in front of my sister and mother but I ended up having goosebumps, feeling cold and choking. Kinda angry with myself for not being able to be stronger. I really don't want to lose anyone anymore and desperately want my family to be happy but it's not up to me. It's like a nightmare and I hate being an emo but I can't help being sad. Sigh.

Another issue is that my relationship isn't in the pink of health either. Another aspect of life I place much emphasis on. We both keep going down swingin' - that's in Ryan Gosling's words - meaning that we keep fighting. It's like Neyo's song 'Mad'.

It's a nightmare.

All I want is for us to be happy, and for us to be there for each other. Sadly we both seem to feel like we can't understand each other. And we keep having misunderstandings and stuff.

I just hope you know I do love you. I don't know why we fight too. I'm not a quitter, but I also know sometimes we have to quit while we're ahead, like if we're incompatible, because sometimes love is not enough to sustain a long term relationship.

Yet I still feel there's a chance for us to be better too. Maybe we just met at the wrong time and much weathering is needed before we become better than ever.

Sigh. I'm just hoping it'll get better and we'll get better. If we are meant to be, we will be.

I'm pretty depressed. I feel hollow. This is definitely a rough patch in my life. I don't know if I'll be better again. Hopefully? Or maybe I'll just be like a soldier who came back from war- never the same as before.

I used to be happier. I'm generally a cheerful person who jokes a lot and makes people laugh. I want to smile, not pout. But somehow life is getting me down. I'll still smile and laugh and joke of course. But happiness seems transient. For now, at least.

I know I have it better than many other people. So I ought to be thankful and happier. I'll try.

If you've read this, congratulations. You survived my first dose of verbal diarrhea in year 2012.

Here's to a better year, and many better times ahead, whoever you are, wherever you are, whatever you are doing.

Cheers.

♥

2011-12-06T00:27:00.000+08:00

Time shall tell...

Bangkok ✈

2011-12-05T00:37:00.002+08:00

Hello!

It's Sunday night again. Love the weather at night recently... It's really cold and nice for sleeping in. But in the day the rain is kinda erratic and I have been drenched several times already. Was ill and on MC from work for two days for the past week.
My brother is climbing Mt Kinabalu tomorrow. Such fun. I'm jealous! Haha. Please be safe and healthy when u come back (:

Ok so I dug out Bangkok pictures to share. Went there with my good friends JQ and YL in May earlier this year (Y2011).

That was like half a year ago (omg). Hahahaa. L-A-G-X-X.

Anyway went out with JQ before the trip to get our SGD changed to Baht.

At Tampines.

♪ I wanna be a billionaire... So freakin' bad.... ♪

Hahaha at the bottom right picture. We were laughing so bad at being crazy enough to take pics with our money at Macs.

Anyway, JQ did not join YL and I for the first 2 days of the trip. I can't remember why (too long ago, haha) but I think it was due to her wanting to find a job for the holidays.

YL and I at the airport! Her uncle sent us to the airport...

At the Budget Terminal... Had Macs for breakfast before flying off. And the bottom few pics of the collage are of the Bangkok Airport.

If you look at the 'Welcome to Thailand' poster on the bottom right, the discussion between YL and I went something like this...

Me: Wow look at that poster. Thailand girls are quite pretty.

YL: Yea this one is not bad.

*upon closer scrutiny of the poster*

YL: No wonder. She's Miss Thailand Universe!

Me: Hahahahahaa. -_-

Ok, a very meaningless conversation yet deeply etched in my mind.

We took a cab (quite expensive for my standards of pricing in Bangkok) and arrived at our affordable hotel. Which we were worried about because we'd heard stories of it being haunted (all thanks to the stereotype of Thai horror films). Turned out to be pretty nice! (:

Next we took this free hotel van to Siam Paragon (if I didn't remember the name of the mall wrongly) for our first meal since touch-down.

Is anyone reading this a big Tomyum fan like me?

Any tomyum from any shop in Thailand is awesome.

We randomly ordered tomyum from some random shop and it was so yummy.

I want tom yum now!

The pic in the centre of a drink is a drink YL bought to try. It's something like an ice-blend made from power berries and the whipped cream-like topping is actually whipped yoghurt. How healthy/ awesome? Btw the name of the drink was really funny. I can't remember what it was though. Gotta ask YL again when I meet her!

Yea and then we did what everyone does in Bangkok... Walk around and shop!

Bought my new cassette tape iphone cover from MBK (this mall in Bangkok)... Hehe am still using it now.

One of the tuk-tuk drivers drove us to a massage place which was really atas.

I think the people in Bangkok are generally quite commercial. Probably because they earn commission for bringing tourists to shops I guess.

I still remember how I squealed when the masseur washed my legs for me before the massage. It was damn ticklish hahaa!

And we did the traditional Thai massage whereby the masseur will bend your body parts for you. Imagine yoga, just that it's enforced by your masseur. I felt like a marinated chicken and it was mad hilarious to look at each other being massaged because we chose a room where we were laying down side by side. HAHAHA.

At night we had Indian food for supper. It was weird because all the available restaurants for supper sold Indian cuisine. We walked around and were like 'uhhh'. Had Naan and butter chicken for supper and after that they gave us that plate of green stuff to refresh our breath (bottom left picture).

I dunno what these green stuff are but I shall name it 'Indian mints'. Popping a few of it into your mouth - the taste is okay and yes it refreshes your breath.

Well I did something really stupid and ate a whole spoonful of it for fun. Hahaha it really sucked and I gagged because the taste was too overwhelming. I still have a phobia of it....

Ok and I feel too tired to make more collages of pictures so here are the original pictures (:

We went back to the hotel to rest for the day.

Our items from 7-11 for Day 1... Snacks and such.

When we got back to the hotel YL realised she didn't bring her contact lens solution and had to go back down to 7-11 to get a bottle. We made a make-shift contact lens out of the hotel cups hahaha.

Good night...~ Zzz

Next morning....

Day 2 in Bangkok!

Sneak peek of how girls get ready for the day. Haha.

I generally wash up quite quickly so here's a shot of YL getting ready!

Random shots of Bangkok scenery.

All from my iphone.

I didn't dare to use my camera much because I didn't want to attract attention and get robbed. :P

Shopping! Platinum mall.

KFC for lunch!

And also a famous Thai dessert... Mango and glutinous rice.

This dish was from a food court. Over there their food court runs on a card system so they don't accept cash. To buy a dish u gotta queue and pay for a card (same price, no extra cost). Kinda redundant to me haha. I'd rather just pay cash without queuing.

Hot water to clean your utensils before use... Great idea for people who worry about hygiene.

Doughnuts... Which we didn't buy. I dunno why I snapped this picture.

Guess what these are?

I laughed when I realised they are padded underwear for girls with flat bums to wear so they look more voluptuous/ curvy.

I had a headache in this mall. There are so many shops and too many things for one to choose from to buy....

Went to Pratunam Market, a street full of cheap buys...

YL got a cold drink (heaven in the hot weather of Bangkok) and I tried this corn snack.

We were really shagged out from the shopping and went back to the hotel for a short rest before dinner at this restaurant- Oishi Grand.

Great buffet, comparable to Singapore's buffets, at a fraction of the cost.

Just to share how much we ate... Hahahaa.

Me with a har-gow. ;)

STUFFED TTM. We were so full that day! I had a stomach ache from being so full. We promised each other we wouldn't have food the next day but when we woke up we had brunch. Hahahaha.

Our messy rooms at night....

Shall end off with our pics that I like!

The 2 days in Bangkok was like our honeymoon together.

Hahahaa.

✈台北101 ✈

2011-11-29T00:31:00.003+08:00

Lagged post. ;)

✈台灣✈ Part 2 !

Day 2...

We left Xi Men Ding. Wanted to go to an amusement park on the 2nd day but our accommodation was screwed up because we were back-packing and didn't 'pre-book' anywhere to stay in.

Xi Men Ding area! Rainy day... Poh (my uni friend) bought an umbrella from 7-11 that day.

Bye Bye Xi Men Ding! (for now....)

Went to Jiang Zi Cui to check out this hostel to stay in but nobody answered the door! In the end we sought help from the Taiwan locals there (from a manicure shop and from this paper box shop) and managed to catch hold of the person i/c but sadly the hostel was full house.

THE BACKPACKERS

Kinda like this pic.

A random breakfast in the Jiang Zi Cui area.

MILK TEA FOR BREAKFAST! WOOHOO

Pardon me I look very plain in the pictures. Reason: Backpacking thus I didn't bother dressing up and I had a slight flu!

YUMS!

My favourite breakfast ever! Chicken roll. I had this several times on this trip haha. YUMS

After breakfast we decided to try our luck looking for somewhere to stay elsewhere as recommended by the locals.

How the train station looks like in Taiwan.

Machine to top up your travel card or buy a travel token

We took a train to this random station most tourists would not visit and it turned out to be a blessing in disguise cos it's quite a pretty place. I forgot the name of the place ooops.

Mesmerized Poh

Picturesque Graffiti wall

Smiley me (:

Hunted around, finally settled for this random hotel which had WIFI at the reception area. Whatsapp-ed all my loved ones there (:

Our 2nd hotel room!

There was something we didn't like about this hotel but I can't remember what. I think there were small flies in the hotel room or it was stuffy or something.

A car park with traffic lights

Mr P exploring

Very obviously, one main mode of transport in Taiwan is via scooters

Felt kinda hungry so we grabbed some sushi from a road-side store.

Not my hand

We went to buy train tickets to Hualien for the next day.

A random shopping mall. Can't remember where it was already

He studies accountancy. Counting our change

Our tix! Yay! This is for the slower railway train.

Making last minute reservations for accommodation @ Hualien

Lockers for bags... We didn't use them

Bought dunkin' donuts to munch on

We then made our way to Taipei 101.

On the shuttle there...

Cute helmet sighted

Inside Taipei 101

Cute cupcakes

Awesome drinks from this shop. I love the Choc Banana mix. YUM

OMU RICE. *happy sigh*

I think Taipei 101's food court is really nice. I'll definitely go back!

Taipei 101!

With the famous 'LOVE'.
I remember we got some random couple to take a pic for us and we returned the favour too. Haha.

Checking out where to go next

We headed to Zhou Xiao area to have Ding Tai Fung.

Ding Tai Fung... Slight more pricey food but worth a try (imo)!

Suan Lang Tang (Sour/ Spicy soup)

I highly suspect there's pig blood inside cos it looks like it D:
Oh well WUTEVER

XIAO LONG BAO

I like the ambience of the restaurant (:

Ding Tai Fung was the most expensive meal of the trip.
Hahaha back packing rocks cos it's fun/ impromptu, and quite budget. I love it :D

Cute mascot.
I bought a mini version of it for my mom- keychain version

Ended the day with snacks from 7-11. Mr P bought cha ye dan (tea egg? tea bag egg? no idea what's the english name)

The oreo ice cream was absolute love. Singapore, why you no import?! Hahahaa.

Anyway, poor Mr P had to exit the hotel room and stay at the reception area till really late to use the WIFI and settle his internship stuff back in Singapore.

I stayed in the hotel room and watched TV programmes till I fell asleep. The Taiwanese argue about the standard of their oyster omelette (orh lua) on TV. Haha that dish is their national pride...

Ok I'm pretty tired after blogging and work's shitty. I have work tomorrow.

Bye....

New laptop

2011-11-28T01:13:00.003+08:00

I'm typing this from my new laptop...

Just got it from Sitex today. (:

I was walking with my bro to the train station today and halfway there I realized I did not bring my wallet. I'm so forgetful. Argh. I got my brother to go to the station first cos Mr P was already waiting there. So I was rushing back to get my wallet and on my way back I saw this poor cat and its abdomen area was slashed. Poor thing. I wonder if it got into a cat fight, got hit by accident by some falling debris or something, or got abused by some evil human.

):
If it's the last reason, that human really deserves bad karma.

Anyway I got the injured cat some of my own cat's food and left it on a tissue for it to eat. And after that it started drizzling so I had to U-turn back to my house AGAIN to get an umbrella. And guess what? When I got downstairs and opened the umbrella, it was spoilt.

Unlucky to the max. I used the umbrella anyway and ran to the train station. By the time I reached I was all sweaty and smelly. Felt kinda bad making my bro and Mr P wait for me. Thankfully when I reached the train station the train arrived on the dot. Yay (:

The only consolation of having to run to and fro? Saw the injured cat eating the food I got it. Yay. (:

I have an avalanche of pictures to sift through/ share. Lazy though. But my new comp is SIGNIFICANTLY faster so I feel the urge to use the comp when I'm home again.

Randoms from everywhere ;)

New lappie.
Was initially contemplating between Apple and Fujitsu but Mr P walked around the IT show with me. Really glad he was there cos he would ask the sales people about the specs and compare prices. One thing he would do that amuses me is that he would shake the sales peoples' hands. Haha. He also met his friend there who was good with computer stuff so we could ask the friend for his advice. So I decided on this Samsung lappie and I hope it's a pretty good buy!

Like the keyboard.

My new Cath Kidston theme! Love it.

New room layout...
My maid has gone back to Indonesia, so I combined my beds together.

Some of my beauty shit. And this is just one table top. Just think of how much money I can save if I don't buy all these but I'm a beauty junkie!

New earrings from my new favourite store, Forever New. Bought a matching pair with my colleague Stella (:

A dress from Forever New. It's so damn nice. Too bad the dresses from the store can be a few hundred bucks. Kinda pricey. Sadly D:

The above picture was my phone display screen and I received a comment that my phone looks like a guy's phone. Changed my display screen ever since ahaha. It's now a puppy wearing sunglasses!

This is me wearing my new earrings.

My cat Cindy, looking a little like Yoda...

Me, trying out centre parting. I went to work with this hairstyle for fun and my colleagues told me I look better. But Mr P told me I look weird so I've reverted back to my side parting hahaha. Centre parting makes my face really round.

A cute comic... Kinda made me go 'awww'.

Shall end off with a cute puppy. It's 1am and I have work tomorrow. November's coming to an end.

FAST OR WHAT.

December - season of spending cos of Christmas and trips. My wallet's gonna get thinner, I'm gonna get fatter (Christmas weight lol) but I love December.

Random questions

2011-11-25T00:49:00.002+08:00

Saw these questions online... Just felt like answering them.

Today was a lazy Thursday... One of my off days. Wow it's already the end of November... I guess I'm looking forward to my pay and Xmas.

Decided to stay home to rest today. Slept a lot, cooked my own food (maggi mee lol), played with my pets (Cindy the cat and Badsu the terrapin), did some house chores (watering of plants and ironing of clothes), and used the comp a lot...

1. Where is your favourite place to shop?
Everywhere. I generally just buy something which I see and like. I do online shopping too.

2. What kind of music are you into? Who is your favourite artist out of that genre?
All sorts of music actually. Cos each type of music is suitable for different situations/ moods/ moments. I love R and B. I love rapping. The mandarin equivalent would be Jay Chou's music. I like Neyo! He has a nice voice. Generally I listen to everything from classical to pop to punk rock to metal.

3. What's the first thing you do after you go to the bathroom in the morning?
Pee. I have the habit of drinking lots of water before bedtime or I'd wake up with a sore throat. Sometimes I sit on the toilet bowl to stone or think about issues. Or use my iPhone haha.

4. What is something in your closet that you always seem to reach for?
Whatever I see. My closet's quite big and messy so I usually just reach for whatever I see.

5. Are you a mummy's girl or daddy's girl?
Neither.

If my father is still alive, I may be a daddy's girl because according to my sisters he doted on me the most cos I'm the youngest girl.

But currently, I'm definitely not a mummy's girl. I'm close to my mom and quite filial (I was told I'm sensible ok!) , but I'm quite my own girl. Haha.

6. What do you want for Christmas this year?
Well honestly I don't have a list of wants. I hope for:
-Peace on Earth
-Health for all
-Happiness for all
-For my relationships with all to bloom and grow
-For my career to have advancement

I'm working now so I can buy stuff that I want. I'm just thinking about what I can give to others and make them happy (without becoming bankrupt) haha (:

7. Gold or silver jewellery?
Definitely silver. Or maybe white gold but I'm perfectly happy with silver.

8. Are you a coffee or a tea person?
TEA! I drink it like everyday. Very bad for me I know. But tea to me is like cigarettes to chain smokers.

9. What's your favourite candy?
Hmmm mints. Because I hate feeling like my mouth stinks. Especially when I'm in the customer service line...

10. Where did you get the shirt you're currently wearing?

Bangkok's Platinum Mall. I'm wearing my striped top with an elephant symbol. Kawaii!

11. Would you ever go sky diving?
Yes, but I will probably be really scared. But if I don't do it, then when?

Dusty Blog

2011-11-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

Oops! Haven't been blogging much.

A sign of myself getting older perhaps. I seem to feel less enthusiatic about turning on my laptop these days. Partially because I need a new laptop. Current one's cranky. I'm lemming after a mac ;)

Am currently typing this from my iphone. Just got a new protective film from Daiso today. I suck at pasting the plastic film onto the phone, there will always be air bubbles when I do it. Dammit. But yay it's therapeutic to see the freshly changed shiny screen of my phone (: how lovely.

Ok, aside from my random rambling about the phone cover... My maid's going back to Indonesia this sat which is like.. 2 days later. This maid is kinda lazy but at least I had someone to help me wash clothes / do the dishes/ clean the toilets etc.

I've always had a maid for all my 22+ years so here's cheers to a new introduction to life: CHORES lol. Just realised that I'm pretty spoilt (in a way). Btw, I cannot fathom ironing bed sheets. That will be the death of me haha.

And also, life's been dishing me lemons. Really sour ones. So afraid of losing my loved ones. It's so irritating, I hate to feel this way. I just want to be happy but seems like it gets hard to breathe at times. Arghhhh but I'll be strong so that I can be the hand and shoulder for the ones who need me. (:

Meanwhile, these lemons probably will show me who are the people worth keeping. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger... So yes.. There it is.

Bear with me till I blog about happier things! :D

Stay Hungry Stay Foolish

2011-10-17T15:31:00.003+08:00

Read this from online.

10 years ago..

The US had Johnny Cash, Steve Jobs ,Bob Hope..

Now they have no cash, no jobs and no hope.

A statement to poke fun at the US. Made me go (-_-)|| and "lol".

I'm not a super enthusiastic Apple fan. Sure, I love my iPhone, and that's it. But I happened to read Steve Jobs's speech to Stanford and found it inspirational. Especially at the stage of live whereby I'm exposed to ideas of my future and finding my way in life.

Life isn't always going to hand us apples and peaches... There will inevitably be bumps and ups and downs... Question is: are we gonna be strong enough to weather through the wear and tear? I sure hope I can be strong enough ;)

Life isn't easy, and to some extent, the choice is ours to make... I truly hope I'll find something I love to do. "Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life." "No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it." Sad but true. At the end of the day, who do we want to be, when we are breathing our last breath? What do we hope to have done and accomplished in our lives?

I've thought hard about it. I don't know how I'm going to turn out, what my future will be like. But I already know my answer to some questions I've been pondering about. Now, it's up to my actions and time to prove it. (:

I'm not a quitter.... I'm gonna give it my best shot. At least, I'd have no regrets. (Ok, I might still have regrets, but at least I'd have done everything in my capacity!)

Here's the Youtube video...

Do give it a watch if you have the time to. Maybe it'll inspire you.

And the whole chunk of Steve Jobs's speech in words. Kinda admire his spirit.

"I am honoured to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal.

Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College [Portland, Oregon] after the first six months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned Coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the seven miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example: Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and sans serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But 10 years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it's likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards 10 years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky – I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz [Steve Wozniak] and I started Apple in my parents' garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2bn company with over 4,000 employees. We had just released our finest creation – the Macintosh – a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling-out. When we did, our board of directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down – that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologise for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me – I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over. I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the world's first computer-animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful-tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, some day you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "no" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.
Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything – all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7.30 in the morning and it clearly showed a tumour on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for "prepare to die". It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumour. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful, but purely intellectual, concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because death is very likely the single best invention of life. It is life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but some day not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And, most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called the Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960s, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors and Polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.
Stewart and his team put out several issues of the Whole Earth Catalog, and then, when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words "Stay hungry. Stay foolish". It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay hungry. Stay foolish. And I have always wished that for myself.

And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you. Stay hungry. Stay foolish."

"Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life."

Fast forward to the future, and may we all look back and realise how beautifully the dots have connected in our life.

I wish everyone the best...

Chloe XX

Credits to: http://www.guardian.co.uk/technology/2011/oct/09/steve-jobs-stanford-commencement-address for Steve Jobs's speech

2011-10-13T17:03:00.001+08:00

The most fitting word to describe how I've been feeling for the past 2 weeks and still ongoing:

Pensive.

汽球

2011-09-30T14:41:00.001+08:00

Feeling so tired now. And not in the best of moods ): Partially cos it's that time of the month and I'm bleeding. Of course there are other factors too. Really worried about my loved ones' health. Everyone please eat well and rest well and stay healthy! xx And so, I finally have the energy to upload a picture post. I realised that there is a significant decrease in me taking photographs, blogging and exercising. It's probably because I just don't have the energy to, cos of work and laziness. Ok I'm not gonna let work or age get me down. Gotta be more spontaneous and enthusiatic! Although I'm still feeling darn lethargic right now. x_x Here's one of the random nights my friends and I met up for a meal and to 'de-stress'. I think it was cos it was a public holiday the next day or something so we decided to hang out late. In case you forgot how I look like... Me. From Jq's camera. Dinner at Simpang!~ I think not many people like the place but I'm insanely into prata, bandung and teh tarik so I like it. For QQ and YL, they love the durian ice blend. For JQ, she just loves us! Hahaa (: And food pics from JQ's camera... CHEEZE FRIEZ! Indulgence Banana prata! Murtabak! One hateful thing about eating at Simpang is the cheap plastic utensils we have to use to cut our food up. It's quite irritating to cut murtabak with 'bend-able' forks and knives and guess what, my plastic fork broke in the midst of dissecting the murtabak and bounced off. Haha, I'm really quite strong. I remember there were quite a few times when I hit people in the stomach and they ended up feeling like their tummies were weird .... Headed to Cash Studio at Simpang for last minute singing. I kinda like this pic cos we are so laid back. We look young ^_^
I like this song below, it's epic when one tries to sing it. Both JQ and I were gasping for air while singing it and YL and QQ were laughing at us.

Sang lots of old school Jay songs too. For YL and I, singing Katy Perry's 'Fireworks' and Britney's 'Hold It Against Me' was really fun. I told my colleagues about how fun it was and they told me the Britney song is very 'ah-lian-ish'. Haha quite true but still... it was fun!

Qi and I. I'm wearing my new baseball jacket I bought from an online Korean spree.. (:

Regrets

2011-09-29T00:58:00.000+08:00

“I find that unproductive. It’s a parlour game. What is there to regret? I made the decisions given the circumstances, given the knowledge that I was able to obtain at that time, and I picked the choice that would give me the greatest latitude if I should fail, to find another way out. What’s finished is done. Presented with the same problem, with the same knowledge, me at that age, that was what I would do.” - Lee Kuan Yew

Pencil & Eraser

2011-09-28T23:47:00.003+08:00

Just got home from my 12-10pm shift. Have been working for 3.5 months and I feel kinda (-_-)|||. Nooo this is not the life I want myself to lead so I shall be doing something about it soon.

Was just surfing facebook and saw this story... Thought I might share it here.

The part I copied from FB...

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on).

Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day. For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..."

Love my mummy! I just gave her a hug and a kiss. Life is short, people have to leave, but I'm sure glad I have my loved ones with me... ^^ Wonder who my future eraser will be... I don't know if I can ever truly be as sacrificial as a parent can be... Thus I feel utmost respect to all the loving parents out there. *salutes*

A short one

2011-09-18T13:23:00.000+08:00

My brother's getting baptised! He's been going for Sunday baptism classes dutifully. Hmm it's quite amazing considering he has never been one who is motivated in the religious aspect. Happy for him ((:

And as expected, my mom's been asking me "when's your turn".

I'm the only one in my family who
1) doesn't go to church and
2) is not planning to get baptised.

Besides my brother in law that is, but he actually follows my sis to church on Sundays out of love (it's a very sweet gesture i think. love will keep us alive).

While my mom doesn't pressure me or whatever and respects my freedom of choice, I know deep inside she wants me to be more religious. But I haven't gotten the urge. No offense, but I've always felt that church is a social setting where people go to meet and bond with people. Like it's more social than religious at times. I know every location is a social setting, but I've been freaked out before.

When I was younger (under 20 years old hahahahahahaa ok there goes my age) I followed my sis to church and there was this guy who liked her and tried to use my younger bro and I as a way to get closer to my sis. Anyway he interrogated me about God and why I don't go to church more often and don't I know I'm letting God down etc and that made me really uncomfortable. Well. I still don't like to speak to him when I see him these days. It feels weird.

And recently someone from church is trying to get to know my mom better. His wife just passed away a year ago. And now he's looking for someone new for companionship. My mom said he probably chose her cos she told him her husband passed away 3 years ago. It's like as though people see church as a dating ground which I guess is true because people who go to church often have the same perspective and values in life but in some cases, it doesn't mesh well with me.

I'm not in a position to judge, but seriously, your wife, the woman you spent bulk of your life sleeping next to, passed away for just 1 year and now you're looking for someone else? It's kinda depressing in my honest opinion. I know people get lonely and stuff but still. To me it's quite disappointing. I hope not all humans are like that.

So long story short, my mom isn't interested but we (my elder sis and me and my mom) talked about it and told her if she does meet someone who feels right we don't mind her remarrying.

LOL kinda a strange concept. I've always seen it on TV or in movies but never thought it's apply in real life.

Yea just a short post and I am going to go get ready to go out for buffalo wings soon at Seletar Air Base. Yay.

Sayonara all.

Adios.

2011-09-13T00:29:00.002+08:00

Older by another year.
Been on the face of Earth for two decades and two years and approximately two months.

Dating back to ~2 months ago.
Supper at this dimsum place called Sweechoon in the Jalan Besar area.

Durian cake from Goodwood Park Hotel! QQ's fave lol. He had two slices. Thanks Ling! ♥~

We heard a crash on that night cos there was a car accident which happened near us.Sucks to hear car tires screeching; it's an awful sound. Anyway alot of people in the restaurant paid and went out just to check out the accident. o.o ------------------------------------------ Went out for dinner with Mr P.

Went to the Pasir Panjang area. Walked alot as usual. This was after my work and his intern which explains the work clothes.
Check out our eye bags! Shagged max.

My pressie from him... Arigatou gozaimasu ♥~
----------------------------------- Kenny Rogers with WW and Jen.

As usual, we ordered a large amount of food. The baked beans especially. It was like we opened 5 cans of baked beans. Anyway, WW was the one who polished off most of it. Hahaaa.

I really do love Kenny Rogers! (:

Mac n Cheese yumm!

Since MJC.
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Steamboat dinner at home. A homemade meal close to my heart.

Mummy and bro.

NYDC oreo cheesecake (:
And that's me without make-up at home for a simple bday celebration haha.

"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that's all."
- Oscar Wilde
I wanna live!And I will and I shall :D

老地方

2011-09-04T22:30:00.002+08:00

I love eating at our 老地方!

The food's affordable and yummy... Heehee.

I love the laksa/ chilli crab sauce and of course the company (:

WAN WAN!

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Recently went to this Shiseido ZA event....

I wrote an essay in the contest and won. Invited JQ with me cos we are in our 10th year of friendship (gasp! I'm damn old SHIT) and she wants to become a MUA in future. MUA stands for makeup artist. She's gonna learn how to help others apply make-up from a certified make-up school. Told her that in future I may let her do my wedding makeup... The keyword here is MAY. Lol! Just kidding :D

After the event we went to chill around Bugis Street... And suddenly we had this adrenaline rush and we bought 'headgear' together...

Our taste is totally different...
JQ: Totally Japanese girly. She bought a straw hat with flowers. She initially wanted to buy one which was even more girly but I told her to get the hat with the checkered band cos it's more quirky.

Me: Punkish. I love trucker caps!

Hehe. Above pic is from my iPhone's inner cam. No regrets buying an iPhone for myself btw. It's the best phone I ever had. Worth the $$$$

Anyway, someone told me I look like a 'mat' or 'ah beng' in my cap. Hellloooo! Stereotyping! I don't care anyway so if I wear my cap and you're hanging with me you just gotta suck thumb. Hahahaaa. :D

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Since I'm working it also means I have more spending power. Recently I splurged on:

1) IPL package

All thanks to coupon websites like Groupon and deal.sg and friends who frequent these websites, I've been spending $$$ on random stuff like this.

Bought this package with YL and we will be IPL buddies just like how we're B buddies. Hahahaaa!

Say hello to lovely armpits!

Alright this is the least obscene picture I can find of nice underarms and I'm too lazy to really google. I'm excited about going for my lifetime unlimited IPL treatment!

2) New external hard disk

Bought the 1 TB hard disk from the IT show. Yay! My old one has a black hole in it. Meaning that sometimes when I copy stuff in, the stuff disappears.

D:

So sad. I wonder how many pics and songs I've lost. ): Nonetheless now I have my new Seagate hard disk to the rescue!

Thanks Mr P for going around the IT show holding my hand and collecting brochures and helping me decide which is the most worth it!

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Yea and time flies. It's September already.

May all of use enjoy the month of September!
I really need to get my ass moving to get some things done but I just can't seem to get started.
Well, ganbate to all~! Cheers!

x

2011-08-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

Favourite colour...

BLACK x WHITE.

\m/

♥ Ichigo ♥

2011-08-18T01:37:00.000+08:00

Just had a piece of strawberry shortcake from Fourleaves cos we celebrated my colleague's birthday.
Yums! ♥
One of my fave cakes. I always like cakes from Fourleaves cos they are yummy and reasonably priced.

Ichigos for the win! Pretty looking fruits.

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Watched this sometime back with the girls YL and JQ. Niceeee.Think the better movies this year are Harry Potter and Bridesmaid. Happened to see Shitat, our long lost sec 3 friend at the Tampines cinema too. I love staying in the east cos you'd just bump into old friends anytime anywhere. Nice, although some days I may feel anti-social and just want to run and hide. Haha. K lah, but I'll usually say hi alright! And the worst movies this year are probably Transformers and MOST DEFINITELY Captain America. Seriously don't get the movies, they were really not my cup of tea. Waste of $$$! And some pics from my Iphone cos I use the apps on the phone to create these collages when I'm on the way to work! Ling's 22nd. Graduation/ family photoshoot with my family.Had lunch at this old school Chinese eating place which felt like Malacca. Nice, I like it! Randoms with Mr P. The bouquet he gave me for my graduation has dried up nicely. I love Iphone emoji and those are the new 'clothes' (covers) he passed to me for my Iphone. Buddy room for B with Ling (hahaha at the submarine window) and Skinny Pizza. Decided to try squid ink pizza, it was ok. I don't think I will eat something as black as that though, eating an organism's secreted ink is probably not something I want to try twice. We also had huge cups of iced mocha and a HUGE piece of cake cos the set cost just $15. After that we walked around Watsons and realised we are both 'googlers'. Lol (:

And a GROSS collage of my poor feet.
Bought a very cheap pair of sandals from Bangkok on my previous trip there, and walked around ECP last Sunday in those sandals.

It really hurt when I walked around but I decided to bear with the pain and heck care. LOL in the end I look like as though I havefoot rot. Damn!At least I know my pain threshold is pretty high.

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Ok and some updates about my (quite mundane) life. ♥ Work: Schedule is quite sucky cos it's shift work. But am getting used to it, and starting to get my life back! Some thoughts here and there regarding my future though. But I ought to count my marbles for the pay, work scope and location. And the food! It's near Old Airport Road. I'll do a post on the food soon. And from my first job, I'm starting to learn about office politics (I'm a bystander whew), my learning curve, my strengths and weaknesses and what I expect from a job/ career. Haha I sound like a motivational speaker or something. And yay to after-work dinners/ outings/ gatherings which keep me alive. Sorry to people who I haven't had a chance to slot in time for yet, cos my work timings are really bad! ♥Family: Currently a family member is in the hospital. And some relationships are strained. I'm a bystander, but I am inevitably also kinda saddened by some issues. Of course my family is still strong and I'm glad that I'm close to my family. We can choose our spouse and friends, but not our family. Aka stuck with them lol. So I suppose what one can do is really to make the best of it. Really hope all will turn out good. I need some time to get over my father's issue though. Recently found his diary and the emotions just set in all over again. Which I kinda dislike cos I get depressed. I hope I can stop being affected by the shadow of the past! ♥Relationship: All's well. We have lots of arguments and fights but thus far, we end up stronger (fingers crossed). Sometimes relationships suck cos they really put one on an emotional roller coaster. I always end up falling for snake babies, meaning guys of the same age as me (year 1989). I wonder why? Anyway, that puts me in various current and future situations. We're currently in the 'I'm working and he's mugging' transition stage and then we'll enter the 'we're both working' stage. Lol! Wonder how we'll fare haha. My current relationship is of total different dynamics because although I am from the same secondary school from Mr P, I never knew him. We only started talking for the first time in Y2010. So yea there's alot to learn about each other which means alot of differences between us. Starting to hang with his friends a little so I am seeing him in a different light. Meanwhile, gotta find stuff to do together because Singapore is so boring! And to add on we usually do night running and stuff but it's the 7th month so we can't. Shall cook and stuff then! ♥Maid: My current maid kinda sucks. She's quite nice but in terms of work, very 'bo chup'. She's really slack and loves taking self shots of herself plus I have her on Facebook so I always see those pics. Weird. ._. There's once when she posed with my laptop to take pics lol! And then she promptly uploaded the pics onto Facebook. Which is stupid because it means that I see them. ._. I was totally weirded out. But hokayyy it's ok. Everyone loves technology.
Meanwhile I'm still in contact with my previous maid of 10 years, Mary! She just got an email account so yay! Miss her so much, she's like my second mummy (: Shall save up hard to go Indonesia to find her one day. I know you guys think Indonesia is cheap but NO it's not. Cos the people there stay in villages and to go over we have to hire one whole van to bring us in, so yea.I miss Mary so much! P.S I wonder how I'm gonna handle having no maid after my current maid has gone back. I've had a maid all my life but oh well I have no choice, time to do some chores! I hate ironing though, especially bedsheets hahaa. Good thing is, I have the bedroom to myself after my current maid goes back. I'm gonna decorate it just THE WAY I LIKE IT and eat inside and use my laptop inside and stick lotsa collages on my walls! Hohoho. ♥Health:Been quite healthy recently? I packed on a little weight awhile ago but now I'm back to normal. Lol. I think my weight fluctuates a few kgs everyday cos of water retention which kinda sucks. :/ Tried a detox plan (one day detox, cos I can't take 5 days of detox YET) recently, it works! I really feel cleaner and more lively after the detox.
And yes, can't wait for 7th month to be over so I can start swimming and running and cycling. I want to night cycle and see the sun rise! ♥Wealth: Erm. Obviously I'm not very wealthy. But trying to save a certain amount of money every month. Maybe I'll get my first credit card by the 8th month of work? Still contemplating if I need one. Currently I'm at my 2nd month of work. It feels like I've been working forever though LOL omg this sucks especially when I think about how I have to work till I'm like 60. LIFE. *sigh*
My workplace caters to a richer group of clients and everyday I see 'tai tais' meaning women with rich husbands, or capable women who are directors strut in and out of my workplace. Today the wife of a big shot from AXN walked in. Omg sometimes I just feel so poor and sad that I am working so hard in such a lowly job position just to earn what is considered as 'peanuts' to these rich people. But someone dear mentioned to me that it really depends on who I'm comparing myself to and that in actual fact I am very lucky already. Hmm guess I'll work hard and try my best to earn more!
Oh and CPF hurts. It takes a big chunk of my pay away and though it's for future use it hurts. Hahahaa.

>ᴥ<

Alright kinda tired now after typing this whole chunk of words. Good nights world.

❤ ❤ ❤

2011-08-16T18:22:00.001+08:00

Stay with me tonight, cause when you're around everything's right ❤

✈台灣✈ Part 1

2011-08-05T21:25:00.000+08:00

Went to Taiwan in May this year
It's now August.
I know, this post is way overdue.
Time is just zooming by! ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ)
Looking at these pics really make me miss Taiwan and flying off to places I've never been before and just exploring.
These pictures are really a joy to look at.

This was my first backpacking trip and it was great ^^
Some pics to share; I'll be blogging about different days in Taiwan for some time cos I was there for quite a while.

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The first day~ Flying off!

Lots of parents don't allow their children to go overseas with somebody of the opposite sex one on one but I'm thankful that my mom really trusts me and I never had this problem at all. Went on this trip with Mr P.

It was pure coincidence that my university friends Poh and Marilyn were also going to Taiwan and that Poh booked the same air tickets as Mr P and I. Marilyn was taking a later flight.

Here we are at Budget Terminal Macs. (The only place I will eat at the Budget terminal cos there really is nothing else heehee but Macs is usually considered yummy to me )

Lol I look a little like Mr P when I wear my specs.

Before I went on this trip, AVA called me to tell me I got into the second round of interview for the post of assistant HR manager. But the interview was only held on days when I was out of the country. Felt a sense of loss when I rejected the interview.

Excited about the trip nonetheless!

On the plane.
Poh, Mr P, and I were sitting in the same row.
Btw, Mr P's surname is Poh and we call my university friend 'Poh' because his name is Chin Poh. So I was on the plane with two Pohs! Hahaa alright kinda lame but cool in some ways too huh.

I was having a terrible flu on the flight itself cos I couldn't sleep well the night before (was too excited).
Ears got really stuck due to air pressure on the plane and it remained that way for a few days in Taiwan. When my ears finally eventually did 'pop' and I could finally hear properly, I told Mr P, "I can finally hear the scooters in Taiwan!" That happened when we were at Taipei 101 building.

Arrived at night and then we took a 1 hour bus ride to Ximending. All 3 of us did minimal planning and when we got onto the bus we were confused. Anyway, we did manage to find our way. (: Poh had already booked his own hotel before hand but Mr P and I were backpacking with no prior plans and had to find a random hotel to stay in for the night. Heehee it was a little worrying but very very refreshing and fun! Our hotel! Looks much better on photos. It was really quite bad cos it was really cheap. It only cost NT700 for a night's stay.. Which is ~30 SGD. Supper at some random stall near our hotel. They had 'lu rou fan' (braised meat rice). That's like one of the most common food in Taiwan I think. Cos they kept eating it. Guess what, I ate 0 of that cos I'm not a fan. :D I ordered some soup noodles that night but didn't like it so Mr P ate it for me. Hahaa. Bought a sandwich from 7-11 for myself instead. I LOVE IT! ♥ ♥ ♥ Super awesome sandwich I can't get enough of. Ate alot of it throughout the whole trip.Singapore's 7-11 is really screwed up and sucky compared to the 7-11 in other countries like Taiwan and Japan. Bed time and then our first time seeing the sun in Taiwan the next day! My backpack and Mr P. He looks like a little boy lol. Some pictures of urban Taiwan while heading out for our breakfast.

We had dou jiang you tiao!
Haha some random uncle eating next to us.

I don't like the you tiao in Taiwan cos it's too oily. How do Taiwan people eat such oily food (much of their food is fried and unhealthy) and stay so slim?! I bet it's genes. Just like how they are so fair skinned. Life is so unfair hahaha. Another Friday. TGIF for all who doesn't have work on a Sat. And guess what. I'm working till 10 today to close the facility I'm working at tonight, and my friend had to disturb me by telling me it's the 7th month. Thanks huh...... .____________.

2011-08-05T01:08:00.003+08:00

cho unhappy! ):

bought something online and it has been sent out last thursday but i have yet to receive it. so sad. i hope it isn't lost. should have just opted for registered postage. hate the feeling of losing something/ waiting for something.

some other stuff too, but it's not convenient to type stuff here. wish i didn't have to feel this way.

a nice cover (of the song 'use somebody') as an attempt to make myself feel better before bed time. enjoy.

weak.

2011-08-03T18:24:00.001+08:00

Went drinking on Mon night @ Harry's, Esplanade.
Ordered a martini. Kinda like it cos it was like an alcoholic ice blend. Actually I wanted the passionfruit flavour but was given strawberry instead by mistake. When we confronted the waiter, my friends told me I was too soft to say 'it's ok' when I should have demanded for another martini. Hahaa I think I can be too soft at times.

The next day after drinking that martini I had a bad tummyache for the whole afternoon/ night. According to my friends it's an uncle drink which is quite 'fierce' for the stomach. Hahahaa I never knew. My stomach is pretty weak though. :/

It's mid week again! My off day again tomorrow... I wonder if I should be happy or sad that time flies, because it means I'm getting older FAST but it never seems to fly fast enough for pay day. Or rather my money flies too. Trying hard to enforce saving plans. As Dory from Nemo says, "Keep swimming!" Gonna watch Captain America later too.. YAY!

Btw, I received several comments and I highlight that the term 'several' means >2, that I look extremely decent like I don't drink, I read in the library, and that I look like my occupation is a teacher. Response to that: I rarely drink, I do read in the library but I am not that demure. Omg I must have been tamed by work and my bf to start looking so decent. (Haha)

I need to dye my hair and put on more dramatic make up soon! Hahaa.

Peace :D

Apples

2011-08-01T18:16:00.001+08:00

Yay. I can finally upload pictures from the computer at work. Which means I can blog more I suppose. (:

Anyway for now, just a rather nice paragraph I came across and liked.

Girls are likes apples.. The best ones are at the top of trees. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think there is something wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing. They just have to wait for right boy to come along,the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.

Don't ever belittle yourself or feel sorry for yourself. It's one of the worst feelings ever, self-pity, and wanting to give up on yourself. There is nothing wrong with anyone, maybe the good things in you are just waiting to be discovered. Just a thought. I once saw this saying, "I'm not weird, I'm just limited edition." Hahaha. Jiayous everyone!

I'll come up with a substantial blog post soon! Going for Skinny Pizza later. Omg. Heard it's really good and I love pizza despite the carbs and such.

I'm getting used to work life and my erratic working hours slowly but surely. REVIVAL OF XX. Dinner dates, anyone? ^^

Breathe x.

2011-07-24T14:06:00.001+08:00

A bit of a headache and feeling slightly repulsed.

Because of ________, ___________, and __________.

x.

Choice

2011-07-18T23:09:00.001+08:00

I've decided to try....

Nephew's Baptism on Sunday.
Haven't been in a church in a long time.... Some thoughts here and there.

Pictures from my iPhone. I swear I'm an Apple convert! I'm hankering after a Macbook but Mummy and Mr P both say that I shouldn't spend on something I don't really need yet. True, but still... Lust.

One of the days I think I look reasonably ok. Had a good skin day.

I make babies cry.

Maternal instincts?

Not really :/

Tips to be happy <:

2011-07-16T17:17:00.000+08:00

Life goal: I just wanna be happy. WIth my friends and family around me (:
Typing this off a Macbook now. Nice. I like the keypad!

Read this off... A reminder to myself, maybe to you too.

Tips for a Happy and Healthy life.

Why? Because life's short. Cherish it~

Health:
■Drink plenty of water.

■Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.

■Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.

■Live with the 3 E’s – Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy

■Play more games.

■Read more books than you did in 2010.

■Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.

■Sleep for 7 hours.

■Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:
■Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

■Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

■Don’t over do. Keep your limits.

■Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

■Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.

■Dream more while you are awake.

■Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

■Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

■Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.

■Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.

■No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

■Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

■Smile and laugh more.

■You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:
■Call your family often.

■Each day give something good to others.

■Forgive everyone for everything.

■Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.

■Try to make at least three people smile each day.

■What other people think of you is none of your business.

■Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
■Do the right thing!

■Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

■However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

■No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

■The best is yet to come.

■Just. be. HAPPY.

Grad lo!

2011-07-14T00:51:00.000+08:00

OFFDAY TODAY (cos it's after 12). Thus I can upload pictures.

GRAD LO!

Commencement... Not such a big deal to me. Just a rite of passage into the next phase of life; attended the ceremony much because of the same reason as why I attended prom- a chance to meet up with friends who shared a phase of school life with me. Not to say that we wouldn't meet up in future of course, but life is gonna get busy at different times for each of us so it wouldn't be so that easy to meet up as a group.
Anyway, thanks to Mr P who got me flowers although I wasn't expecting any. And my mommy for treating us to supper at 126, and my bro who rushed from JC to the ceremony. The 2 of them promptly slept soundly through the ceremony before popping awake before I went on stage. Oh we had tau hway too and I recall how I dreaded going to work the next morning after the ceremony. Time flies too fast~

Pictures...

random o.r.zzzzzz.

2011-07-12T14:06:00.000+08:00

oh well as my blog title suggests: zzzzzzzz.

where am i now? currently at work, at the front desk, but there are no customers so i'm just standing around, playing bakery story on my iphone and whiling time away. gosh being at work during a weekday is really a huge difference from working on a saturday.

kinda hungry although i had some loackers choc cube wafer biscuits from the pantry. my break is at 430pm and i havent had any food since >12 hours ago. famished but i guess it's kinda like an glycogen depletion exercise for myself (trying to look on the bright side of having a growling tummy).

anyway im currently hooked onto this tv series called vampire diaries. hahaa better than twilight imo. the actors/actresses are also much more of my 'type' of eye candy ;)

i just got caught typing this post by a nice colleague but i'd better go! sayonaraaaa!

ghost town

2011-07-10T22:01:00.001+08:00

ok... i know this blog is kinda like a ghost town now...
have been too lazy/tired/busy to update it.
will be updating it soon! love my blog background :D

on a side note, i ate lots of fruits today! white peaches (thanks to the person who gave my family and i a whole punnet), apricots (fresh ones!) and grapes. yummmms. really miss eating at home cos my current work timings rarely allows me to.

have also just had my 22nd birthday and commencement (grad lo!).

ok will be back to blog again after ive uploaded pics. (^.^)v

That feeling creepin' in...

2011-06-16T23:02:00.003+08:00

Just a quote I read which made me reminisce.

Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts.
Homework goes in the trash. Mobile phones are being used in class.
Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka.
Bikes become cars. Kisses turn into sex.
Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground?
When protection meant wearing a helmet?
When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties?
Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and Mom was your hero?
Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were about who ran the fastest.
War was only a board game. And the only drug you knew was cough medicine.
The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?
And we couldn’t wait to grow up?

I miss those times. Once we grow up we'll never view things/ think of issues the same naive and innocent way anymore. I grew up; am still growing up. Sometimes I feel quite disgusted living in this world. It's kinda getting crazier the older I get and the more things I see LOL. In a good way I guess that's what makes it exciting? My mom is still my hero though ((((: She always will be. I can't wait to give her and my ah ma money when I get my first 'real' pay!

Don't really have the time to blog with pictures. Sorrryyyy to whoever is camping here for picture posts. Cos I'm under training and my work schedule is only out every Saturday for the next 3 weeks. Sooo irritating cos I don't know if I'll be free for my birthday. I'm turning 22! Old omg but ok I shall embrace it and mature beautifully (P.S. will be saying this for years to come till I bite the dust, should 2012 not be the end of the world).

Work ended at ten today, it's my first lateeee shift! Waiting for my off day to come again cos the last off day just flew away like that. Colleagues are nice (so far) and I don't think I'm the kind who will really be involved in politics so yea. (: Today I had a talk with a new 29 year old friend who's having his 'mid life crisis' and doesn't know what he is doing/ wants to do. I did my best to tell him it's ok and make him feel better. The talk kinda made me a little scared about my future. I mean my prerogative in life is that we should just live life happily, but I guess I want goals for myself too. I want to know what I will end up doing ultimately. :/ I'm definitely not the stay home kinda person so yes. I am motivated! ((: Can't wait for the 3 weeks of training to be over so that I can get my permanent work schedule and get my ass moving!

Ok surprisingly I am still physically and mentally alert. LOL! So gonna die tomorrow. (Maybe it's cos I had tea even though I'm having my period, not supposed to drink that but whatever)

And a note to myself. Just to remind myself.

TOUGHEN UP, CHLOE HUO XIUXIAN. *slaps myself with a dozen cold fish*
Stop wanting, craving, expecting, wishing. There's no end to this and the purpose is NIL.
The higher your expectations, the harder the fall, the more pain you feel. I want to learn to be more numb. ;)

On a sidenote recently talked to my ex and learnt that he got together with a new girl. Really glad for him and here's wishing him all the best. It's hard, but I really hope we can still be great friends ultimately.

SAYONARA.

First Day of Work

2011-06-14T10:42:00.002+08:00

Had my first day of work yesterday. It was training held at Mountbatten, very near to the awesome Old Airport Hawker Centre. Had both lunch and dinner there lol. Kinda like my work already. (: Anyway Mr P was really sweet and surprised me by fetching me home although his work ended at 6 while mine ended at 9. Though he ate with his friend I know he had to wait some time for me. Thank you Mr P! Even though u had to take a taxi home and have your mom's dinner, you had dinner with me at the old airport hawker. I'm blessed. (:

P.s one of my professors from NUS last semester passed away recently. He looked so healthy just months ago. Life is fragile, illness can hit us anytime. Live fully and ttm everyone. Condolences to my prof...

Typed from my iPhone

I miss my mummy! ._.

2011-06-12T15:15:00.002+08:00

Feeling kinda zzzzzzzz now.

I miss my mummy who's in Europe for 2 weeks! I miss her more than I thought I would. ):

Miss the bazhang she makes when everyone else is eating bazhangs their mother made.

I have work from 11am-9pm tomorrow. My new job is not the typical office job, it has pretty erratic working hours. Sighhhhh kinda sad to start work. Transition state= inevitable changes. Zzzz ):

That Kill Bill Girl

2011-06-02T21:50:00.000+08:00

I am loving her dress and look so much!

P.S. she's Uma Thurman from Kill Bill ;)

Back to reality

2011-06-01T14:56:00.000+08:00

Hi!
I'm back from my graduation trips! Where did I go?

Taiwan

and

Thailand (Bangkok)!

The sad thing about trips is that they are always so good and are over too fast. Now it's back to reality!

Currently typing on my almost 4 years old HP lappie. Hmmm.. Shall start being proactive in hunting for a job cos my mom's been nagging. ;P Then I can also get a new laptop!

Just wanna say thanks to all who went on trips with me; I enjoyed your company thoroughly. Love!

Ganbatte to all the other job hunters out there and those who are still mugging! (:

Shall blog again when I feel like it. Recently I feel quite against using the computer; which is amazing.

2011-05-24T00:20:00.000+08:00

Kinda blue tonight.
Cos of my trips and bad timing, I sacrificed 3 potential jobs.
Feelin kinda bad nw although everyone says that there'll be more opportunities.
Kind of liked one of the job scopes you know. And I'd nailed it but I couldnt commit. Hate it when it's so close yet it slipped through my fingers.

Cos of this I've decided to rest till my bday is over before I start work in July.

Ciao. Put on a facial mask w sadness n shall nurse myself to sleep. Weather sucks!

Typed from my iPhone

Gone Fishing

2011-05-22T02:15:00.001+08:00

Back from Taiwan! 10 days away from Singapore. Trip was pretty nice (:
Going to be going to Bangkok again for 5 days after 3 more days. Will blog when I'm back from Bangkok!

Going to church tomorrow to thank God for blessings of a safe and good trip.

P.S. worried about my job. Sighhhh~

Malacca!

2011-05-06T00:07:00.000+08:00

Hi (:
I've just ended my exams 2 days ago and am now free! :D
So what have I been up to?
Just planning my itinery for my free-and-easy upcoming trips and catching up on sleeps, shows, net-surfing and the general elections. I think I know who I'm gonna vote for already.

Back in December 2010, I went to Malacca with the bunch below!

We met early in the morning, took a SBS bus to Larkin and bought takeaway macs to eat on the bus. Poor QQ didn't buy macs though it was so cheap cos he had wanton mee for breakfast beforehand!

Macs is really cheap in Johor, about half price in comparison to SG.

A random mama shop in Johor.

YL and I didn't sleep the night before so the 2 of us concussed on the way from Larkin to Malacca. QQ and JQ were awake mostly; with QQ playing some high school game on his iTouch. Apparently the ride to Malacca was bumpy and the driver of our bus sped like a speed demon. Hahaa. No wonder I had a headache when I woke up at the destination!

The view from the bus.

We reached the destination earlier than expected and took a taxi to our hotel. The uncle cheated our money! Grrrr. And this was the first taxi we took which was very run-down. No air-con and all. QQ and JQ had never been to Malacca and that ride gave them the feel that Malacca is very 'primitive'.

The hotel lobby!

Because we reached too early we couldn't check in.

Finding directions to a nearby shopping mall to walk around.

We had KR to rest our feet! Shared a meal.

JQ and I posing with our loots from Etude House.

QQ and YL. We had gift exchange for belated Xmas and it turned out that YL and I, and QQ and JQ were coincidentally each others' angel and mortal! Despite randomly drawing lots. (:

Us going back to the hotel. That's our hotel. It looks nice huh.
Pictures of our room.

The hotel and the room looks quite nice huh. But it's a facade!

Maybe it's because we got the furthest block (from the main building) so our room was pretty old, dusty and our seaview was a swamp. The corridor was pretty smelly with alot of garbage too. :\ We booked 2 rooms; QQ had it worst cos when he bathed the water that came out from the showerhead was a rusty brown. Old piping. Hahaa.

The 'seaview' from our room! Quite nice in photos.

Us unpacking.

JQ, counting her $$$

Timer shot! (QQ was in his own room)

After that we went to explore Malacca.

The mentioned smelly corridor. Btw the lift had huge metal doors with no sensor and kept closing on us, crushing each of us at least once on our trip. Hahaa!

The hotel. Gives one a 'villa' feel. Too bad our room was quite cui!

Jonker Street, one of the well known streets in Malacca. We took a taxi there and the taxi driver was a friendly, lovely man who guided us around.

Had chicken rice balls for lunch/ tea break! The famous shop was pumped full of people so we tried this other stall with a rubber chicken outside.

VERDICT: It wasn't very nice. We regretted after we walked past another stall, Farmosa, after we'd have eaten here!

After that we went for Chendol! Awesome in super hot Malacca.

Hot school decor in the small shop.

Quite a nice pic of QQ and me in the shop.
QQ had magnum at this stall! Think he couldn't stand the heat.

This is the auntie who was making the chendol. YL felt bad for her cos she worked so hard and gave her more money if I didn't remember wrongly. But the auntie turned out to be quite unfriendly when we asked her for directions which was -.-

Anyway further up the street there was a chendol stall with much bigger bowls of chendol! Regretsss!

We ate this yummy hand/homemade ice lolly too! Niceeeee! YL and I had pandan but only JQ had sour plum. We always tease that she's pregnant cos of her taste in food and dressing (the loose at tummy kinda clothes) hahaa.

We also had this fish shaped cake thingie! There was kaya inside. Yumms! YL's recommendation. A must-have! Wanted more but was just too full.

After that we just walked around and shopped (:

The most awesome cheese tarts ever!

When night fell we had A&W's for dinner. This peddler 'attacked' YL with her goods while we were queueing for food. QQ went to help out and guess what? Both YL and QQ ended up buying the goods. Hahaa such sweet friends I have. JQ being the paparazzi as usual, snapped this shot! HAHA.

P.S. the green sign in the picture says 'KELUAR' which means 'EXIT'.

Some night scenary! We walked from the malls to Jonker to have a dinner/ supper of Nyoya food, then back to our hotel.

Shopped at Sanshugong for the local snacks there. I bought ALOT there cos my family loves such goodies. The person who bought the least? QQ!

QQ carrying JQ's and his San Shu Gong bags. Hahaa.

Interior of the restaurant we ate at. It was lovely!

Group pictures!

Our food. (:

And we bought those old school 'pop pop' things which we throw on the ground to make it 'explode'! We had a war on the streets. 3 (the girls) vs 1 (QQ)!

Back to the hotel for a good night's sleep!

LOL internal JOKE.

Our LOOTS! Scary?!
I expect much more for our upcoming BKK trip ;)

In the end QQ came over to shower too cos as mentioned, the tap in his room gave him rusty brown water. Cui ttm!

In the morning... Breakfast!

YL and I look pretty bad and tired in the picture above. We call these our 'morning faces'. Haha funny thing is, Mr Chan commented on Facebook that 'you girls look good'. LOL?! Mr Chan is our sec school Math teacher and he is funny!

The rendang and teh tarik for breakfast was awesome (: I miss hotel breakfasts! Who wanna go and eat breakfast with me SMS me please! (If I can wake)

Some last minute shopping!

YL bought Dior's highlighter.

And we boarded a tour bus home. Kinda expensive; YL said the man who recommended it to us was lying. He said there were no tour buses at the public bus terminal back to Larkin anymore. This one brought us to the customs directly.

Oh well.

Way home.

Shall end off the post with our group pictures!

The ice lolly thing. Btw bird shit fell on YL's hat while we bought this. We looked up and saw birds perched on a cable hanging over us. YL was unlucky ttm!

Overview of the trip:

The hotel was quite cui but I enjoyed the company. This was our virgin trip but it was enjoyable! Bought tons of stuff. Got to know of KAYA BALLS and now I'm always on the lookout for that food when I'm in Malaysia. Spent some money too; I wouldn't mind going back for a short trip! :D

Next stop for us: Genting/ KL?

Puppies for Sale

2011-05-01T03:09:00.002+08:00

Another night whereby I can't sleep.

Reason?

My bro in law bought beef horfun and Rochor tauhwey from Geylang for supper. Good timing, just when I lose some weight I have this feeling I'm gonna gain it back again....

Anyway, my big toenail just dropped off! ZOMG. Cos I accidentally hit the door with it. ): It's really very ugly now, how am I gonna go BKK to have my pedicure? ):
*zombietoe* Must be my karma for laughing and always trying to step on someone else's damaged toe. LOL.

A lovely story I read somewhere else; take a minute to read it cos it's beautiful.

x x x x x x x x x

Puppies for Sale

A farmer had some puppies he needed to sell. He painted a sign advertising the pups and set about nailing it to a post on the edge of his yard. As he was driving the last nail into the post, he felt a tug on his overalls. He looked down into the eyes of a little boy.

"Mister," he said, "I want to buy one of your puppies."

"Well," said the farmer, as he rubbed the sweat off the back of his neck, "these puppies come from fine parents and cost a good deal of money."

The boy dropped his head for a moment. Then reaching deep into his pocket, he pulled out a handful of change and held it up to the farmer. "I've got thirty-nine cents. Is that enough to take a look?"

"Sure," said the farmer.

And with that he let out a whistle, "Here, Dolly!" he called.

Out from the doghouse and down the ramp ran Dolly followed by four little balls of fur. The little boy pressed his face against the chain link fence. His eyes danced with delight.

As the dogs made their way to the fence, the little boy noticed something else stirring inside the doghouse. Slowly another little ball appeared; this one noticeably smaller. Down the ramp it slid. Then in a somewhat awkward manner the little pup began hobbling toward the others, doing its best to catch up....

"I want that one," the little boy said, pointing to the runt.

The farmer knelt down at the boy's side and said, "Son, you don't want that puppy. He will never be able to run and play with you like these other dogs would."

With that the little boy stepped back from the fence, reached down, and began rolling up one leg of his trousers. In doing so he revealed a steel brace running down both sides of his leg attaching itself to a specially made shoe. Looking back up at the farmer, he said, "You see, Sir, I don't run too well myself, and he will need someone who understands."

The world is full of people who need someone who understands.

(:

Last Chance to 'Ton'

2011-04-29T16:22:00.001+08:00

Lying on my bed now, tummy side up.

Just got back from Bedok Macs, where I studied through the night with WK CYC and TTW. Haven't seen TTW for way long and communicating with him made me realise that I really miss the old days (secondary school days).

Also saw QQ and YL there. There was this mishearing among the guys which was funny. Reminder to self: let YL know when I see her!

Anyway after the 'tonning' (slang for staying awake overnight) they brought me to have breakfast at this hawker near Bedok Int. I didnt eat cos I don't eat at wee hours; am usually still asleep, but the fried butterfly bun and fishball noodles seemed yummy! Gonna try it someday!

While we were at Macs this auntie who came over to ask us what 'funny' meant cos she didn't know English and the Macs staff called her that. We didnt know how to reply without hurting her feelings so we told her we didnt know. Anyway after that she came back to tell WK that he looks like a policeman and is very handsome. It was quite scary cos she didn't seem very sane and WK was super traumatised but the rest of us just kept chuckling away and nobody went to his rescue. Haha.

Well throughout the night we kept talking about everything under the sun and also about all the political stuff as well as stuff like giving birth to kids. Lol quite funny to listen to em talk about it.

Anyway am really glad
1) I'm born in this era (I'm more educated and am thus not destined to depend on anyone financially i.e. no arrested transition between being a working woman and a housewife)
2) I've not gone wonky (all the talk about the NTU girl who put the knife in her head, that's quite sad)
and
3) I'm Singaporean (thus capable of working hard and earning a relatively decent self-sustainable income)

Am also reminded that I shouldn't judge anyone based on anything. Who am I to do that? I have no right. This shall be one of my goals in life.

Some pics from the night.

Before going to Macs had supper with WK at 85 cos he sent me his sis's bridal cakes. Lol thanks for the surprise!

My first time eating 'ngoh hiang' at 85. Dunno how to spell the dish's name. Rarely eat this dish. Anyway u can see the shrimps on that crispy thing which I refused to eat.

WK's sis's old school bridal cakes. Pretty colours.

LOL happened to see CYC at 85 right after I messaged him. There was this whole 'bojio' thing (for fun) and we ended up eating with some AHS people.

My cosy bed. Reached home at about 7am before I concussed. Then PAP blasted a loud voice message to my estate to vote for them at about 11am and I popped awake for awhile.

Yep just a random. Anyway I have good news of getting interviews of potential jobs. Jiayous XX! Que sera sera.

P.S. today marks the first signs of F.G. Haiii please don't let me regret anything. I don't want to, I don't want to, I don't want to, why must everything be so complicated when it can just be pure and simple. I hate it.

All pics from the iPhone. One can see that quality isn't very good but I love taking pics with it anyway! :D

Love, XX *one more paper to emancipation*

23042011

2011-04-23T22:53:00.001+08:00

Bored stiff reading about japanese history for an impending exam.

Had dental appointment today and my gums bled. Looks like i need to take better care of my teeth now. Mom got all of us an electrical toothbrush and guess what she told me? That shes glad im gonna work and that i shall pay for my future dental appointments myself. Such sweet sorrow. Then we had lunch and it was a 3 course meal: soup, main and dessert with tea. Weighed myself and fml i gained some weight just from that meal. Damn damn damn.

Was in the shower just now and thought of some stuff. Such memories just come creeping back into my mind at times. What do i want? What do i really want?

And im typin this on my new iphone. Whee. Spent a bundle this month cos of this new phone and upcoming trips. Ouch but money's earned to be spent.

Just a random post abt an average day and thoughts in my life. Kudos if you're reading this. (:

I am feeling the triple 'D's:
Dull
Dejected
Down

And also lots of zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Sleepy

I LOVE STEAMBOAT!

2011-04-22T02:37:00.002+08:00

I should buy this tee.

Cos...

I LOVE STEAMBOAT!

Constantly crave for it ^^

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Round One...

Hahaa. Ok this dates back to December 2010.

With my Physics in Life Science group.

ZOMG feeling hungry looking at this picture. *curb that appetite, XX, curb!*

LOL chen en's GOU QI ZI (the red fruits floating in the soup)

The soup we chose came with chicken fried with lots of chilli. I think it was ma la soup base. Can't really remember the details. It was yummy and very spicy. Numbed our tongues after eating it!

My face looks so fat in the picture lol. Chubbycheeks. -.- Personally dislike it but somehow some people appreciate that in me. Hahaa I'm glad I guess ^^

Val and I at the famous dessert shop neat Bugis after the steamboat.
Chen en and I didn't order anything cos we were too full but Val and MH did. If I didn't remember wrongly, that was Val's aloe vera in the picture.

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Round 2:

Went back to the same place cos I like it! On a lazy weekend afternoon. Pretty empty that day.

Accidentally ordered the wrong soup this time round. This was the duck soup base. It was nice too. Yum

I just cut my fringe awhile ago. Looking at this pic makes me miss my longer fringe. Rarrh.

I still remember we overate that day and had really big tummies. My partner in crime even had a tummyache.

If you ask me to choose between buffet or steamboat I'd pick the latter. Cos somehow even though I overeat I always lose the weight gain easily. Maybe cos' I sweat while eating? Hahaa just a random thought.

Swensens
Just a quick post before I head back to mugging. It's already Friday of the reading week. What.the.hell?! Time flies ): Luckily, I only have 3 papers, one of which I'm most definitely gonna S/U.

XOXO, xx

Rules and what not

2011-04-19T16:47:00.001+08:00

Sidenote: My unlucky meter is on the rise. Damn grumpy now. @*($#@)$*$_!@)#

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Would you consider yourself as someone who

lives by rules
or breaks rules?

I suppose as a generalization Singaporeans are generally rule-abiding.

Personally I prefer not to tie myself down to any rules; so that i can breathe my air; and live in my own space. To express myself fully; learn about myself slowly but surely, start to love myself, truly. I like to be nocturnal, and someday I'd like to do something crazy like skinny dipping or wallow in the snow naked just to feel the snow on my bare bones (yes, inspiration from this movie I watched).

Yet in life there comes expectations. To our loved ones, family and friends, people around us who care about us. People always expect us to live up to some standards, of their own and of the society; heck, we expect ourselves to live up to our own standards. Some rules are difficult, nearly impossible to defy, such as doing well academically or conforming to socially acceptable life stages like getting a stable job and starting a family. Most of us will eventually settle down and start a family. And maybe get fat as we tend towards mid-life; not a happy thought, lol. :\

While there are expectations like these all around us, I hope we will always remember to live, laugh, love, and breathe. We only live once as ourself, me as Chloe Huo Xiuxian, and you as you (whoever is reading this), so we should all live to our fullest and learn to laugh freely. Like everyday is the last; always express your love towards one another, don't bear grudges, learn to forget and forgive (this is very difficult but just try to).

Just a random thought that came to me so I blogged this down. We only have one lifetime to live. Yes, to meet expectations towards the rest of the world, yet not oblige yourself and your own happiness solely to the needs of others. To achieve such a balance, will happiness and freedom come.

It's all about finding balance in life, and knowing your priorities.

Cheers. (:

2011-04-19T02:19:00.001+08:00

"I don't envy people with expensive cars, branded bags, luxury houses or wealthy lifestyle. Instead, I envy those grey haired couples who still hold hands and talk lovingly when they walk together even after decades of marriage."

♥

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL

2011-04-14T01:36:00.003+08:00

OMG.

I just realised that today is my last day of school.

....

....

*allow for time to digest information*

I guess the word you can use to describe how I'm feeling now is:

A bit of chinese trivia here.
"囧" pronounces "jiǒng" and means melancholy.

Oh well it's gotta come someday.

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Here's something to perk up you guys reading this.

Introducing... this dog called BOO!!!

Quite a Facebook phenomenon, so if you want more pictures just go and facebook 'Boo'.

Bruce Lee Boo

Boo and friend (same pose lol)

Boo, before and after a dip in the pool

LOL MAD CUTE RIGHT?
I LOVE BOO! ♥｡(◕‿◕)｡

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And I really wanna eat this healthy meal now...

Stir-fried 奶白 & Brown Rice!

I can cook this and I'm gonna do that soon! (During my study break heehee)

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Ok bye all. I'm off to train with my katana.

Cos it's gonna be me against the corporate world in a while... (Got a second round interview this friday.)

XOXO, XX

HONGKONG PART 2.

2011-04-12T18:46:00.071+08:00

Sois heureux un instant
cet instant
c’est toute ta vie

A meaningful French phrase I read.

It means:
Be happy for a moment, this moment is your life.

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Today spells the death of two of my modules; finished my final presentation for ES and my final CA for Astronomy. YAY!!! 3 more papers to graduation (:

And to continue from Hongkong Part 1,here's

HONGKONG PART 2

On the plane...

When I take a budget airline's flight I won't eat anything until I reach my destination so that there's space for the local food there!

After arriving at the Hongkong airport ZQ planned everything very nicely (thanks) and we took this bus (A21) which brought us to the hotel directly.

Bus was very spacious and empty with space to put our luggage!

The hotel we stayed at was Mongkok Metropark. Btw I'm a total streetie... The place I love to frequent most in Hongkong has gotta be Mongkok!

View from the hotel room: Slums. Quite quaint.
After packing up and taking a quick rest: off we go for our first taste of Hongkong food (for me actually, cos it's my first time there)!

I just realised I rolled my jeans a little too high. Shit! It looks crappy. Hahaa. Please pardon me :P

On the way there we saw this billboard. Lol?

And this is the Char Chan Teng we ate in sooo many times on the trip! I love it! Will definitely go back again.

P.S. I speak to the waitresses and lady boss there in Canto ;) Proud of my origins hahaa.

The food.

So slurpilicious.
I love all of it; the polo bun, the egg tart, the noodles, the milk tea! ♥♥♥

And if you notice, the people opposite us (people in Hongkong often share seats), are eating pork chop rice. Yums? I don't think I tried that.

And pictures of the streets of/ near Mongkok.

Overhead bridge.

I love this picture. ZQ brought his bro's semi DSLR on the trip and took alot of nice pics which I really like!

And for those of you wondering why I'm blogging about this trip, although we're not together anymore it's still a nice memory and I really enjoyed the trip. (:

2011-04-10T17:20:00.001+08:00

*Edit at 2.41am 11 April 2011*

I AM SO BORED!

Studying Astronomy now. White dwarfs, black holes, blue giants, constellations...

I feel like I can't study anymore. Been playing with Facebook (God bless Mark Zuckerberg, hahaa), but it's not helping. Still utterly BORED. In chemistry they call this saturation point.

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"Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.

Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved."

Beautiful words by Shakespeare.

So true. I need to learn love in order to love.

2011-04-06T12:07:00.000+08:00

Words of widom from Bubbles.

Hahaa.

I skipped school again today. Couldn't get up again, but it's ok cos it was only 2 hours of lecture. Recently I just want to lie in bed and nua.

Doing physics now. While it's fun I'm glad I took Bio and Chemistry all my life because I know if I have to do more physics calculations, I'd get a brain haemorrhage.

Will update this post again later, after I've finished the physics assignment~

Onslaught of interviews... And something sweet

2011-04-05T02:39:00.001+08:00

One of the sweetest thing someone said to me.
Just to remember. ♥

The reason I would be tempted to get a small tattoo. It's mad chio! (You can beg to differ but to me it's body art)

And yes... This is how I felt after today's interview.

Been to 2 interviews already. It's really quite tiring and draining and the suckiest part?

Waiting for the results.

Much worst than A levels, cross my heart -.-

Anyway today's interview went alright, but it lasted from 1.35pm-5.30pm. Long huh? It's cos there was an essay to write, presentation on the essay, Q and A session, group discussion and group presentation. 2 weeks to the results of whether I get into the next round of interview.

So many rounds of interviews... Such is the required for entry into the workforce nowadays. Can't believe I'm that old.. 22 this year!

Anyway several aspects of work I need to think about; got this off someone else's blog. Credits to the person (somebody I dunno, just found it useful)

Work Environment
Job satisfaction
Distance from home
Pay
Good Colleagues
Good Boss
Cheap Food
Welfare (e.g gym, outings, retreat)
Job prospects

How would you rank it?

Shall rank it when I have more energy, it's 2.36am now!!!

Shall end off with this necklace I like.

Swallow= awesome because it represents freedom and flight. To me anyway.

Not getting it cos it's gold, which I rarely wear.

GOOD NIGHTS ALL. :D

Presentation tomorrow though it's a mock ;)

A Passable Passport Photo

2011-04-01T18:36:00.000+08:00

You know how passport photos always make us look very very FUGLY right?

I've suffered the repercussions of ugly passport photos for the past 21 years and today I feel a sense of achievement cos' I finally managed to get a passable passport photo! :D

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Ok it's not uber nice but definitely better than my past photos. LOL.

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JANG JANG JANG!

Not bad right.

I managed to make the background white by copying and pasting white blocks all over.

Like this.

Hahaha cos I don't have Photoshop in my computer. Wait till I get a new laptop! ($$$)

And I know that one of my eyebrows are missing but I really dislike having no fringe. Hahaa.

Fringe rocks! :D

random xyz

2011-03-31T00:48:00.002+08:00

Love maxi dresses.
I know some may feel it's overkill to wear it out in Singapore. I personally like the beachy feeling it gives and it's not a formal dress, it's made of cotton! So whatever, I still like it.

Gonna wear my black maxi like that next time!

Definitely too flashy for my liking but the picture gives a nice retro feel.

And wow... Very nice short hair on this woman. She looks really hot in this hair cut! Like... G.I.Jane?

Something I'll ~~probably~~ definitely never have the guts to do ;)

8am lecture tomorrow.
I must tell myself that I can wake up for it!

pictures credit to lookbook.

IPHONE

2011-03-29T01:46:00.004+08:00

DYING TO UPGRADE TO AN IPHONE 4

BUT IPHONE 5 IS COMING

*CONTROLS MYSELF*

I wonder when I'll have to wait till

p.s. i love J Holiday!

Sakae Sushi Buffet

2011-03-26T22:38:00.004+08:00

Hate it when I feel the ants in my pants cos of others' POV that I should do my honours.

Just gotta make sure I won't regret I guess.

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Just had a joke of the day.

My bro brought some of his JC friends back to our house for awhile before leaving for dinner. After they left, had this conversation with my mom.

Mom: "That girl Hao brought back just now is not bad huh? Looks quite pretty."
Me: "I didn't notice. Was too shy so I was in 'hiding' mode." (Cos I was wearing specs and looking mighty unglam)
Mom: "You? Shy? Can't stand you hahahhaaa" *breaks into mad hysterical laughter*

-_-

FYI I can be shy. Especially when I'm looking ugly. hahahaa. In specs = low confidence.

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Sometime back in November 2010, decided to dye my hair back to dark brown! The plan is to... allow my black hair to grow out and rejuvenate my damaged scalp. :P

Miss the length of my old hair! But I had to cut off the damaged permed hair.

Used this. Got it like for $7 from Bedok Interchange.

Bye long brown hair! Hi black hair for me to successfully pass the impending interview rounds. (:

And here's the after.

This was during a celebration of the death of exams last semester. Went to Sakae Sushi at the airport to have sushi buffet at student price with the human geog module gang.

Had lots of old school 'fake' Japanese food. If you get what I mean lol.

How to eat sushi without feeling too full: poke the central ingredients out and leave the rice. Everyone does this eventually during sushi buffets!

Killer udon- Amanda & John had this and were uber full. Luckily for Ben & I, we opted not to eat that! Hahaa. Otherwise our stomachs would have surely exploded.

Ended off with this- Rocky Road ice cream.

And it was close to Xmas so we saw a magic teapot at the airport. Although none of us knew what it was initially until we asked the operator. Loll.

xoxo, XX

Dawn

2011-03-24T01:05:00.003+08:00

Suddenly it dawned on me.

From my past relationship,I learnt more than I thought I did.
Learnt about what I can live with, and what I can't live with.

One thing is
I really dislike it when someone who is as important as to be my other half in this lifetime, makes an important decision without letting me know at all beforehand, until he has been accepted into the programme.

Please note that I am not unreasonable.
I won't want the person to back out of the programme.
In fact, if he backs out I'll feel more pissed off.
Cos if he signed up knowing it'll hurt us and then he backs out and loses out on this opportunity for himself, isn't it more retarded?!

If he says he didn't mean it,
To me it means he either did not do his research well on what he signed up for, or that he knew I'm the opportunity cost and he didn't bother to tell me.
That shows me ALOT about how much I mean to him

Just my personal perspective.
After making your choice, if you offer to drop out.
To the girl, u'd only be making her feel more worthless and also feel bad that you want to drop out of something good because of her.

Yep. On a personal basis I just don't like the feeling.
For me it'll be a two-way situation
Either I suck thumb, or I leave.

Oh well just a late night realisation which dawned on me.
I guess that in this kind of you-make-your-decision-and-i'll-make-mine situation

What to do is to:

1) Come to a decision after discussion.

2) If you didn't discuss about your decision, be sure that u know the pros and cons of your decision and the details of what you signed up for.

3) Don't say you want to back out of the decision easily. Be firm about your decision so your partner knows it was not a slip-shod decision. (unless your partner is the kind who will force you to back out before he or she will be happy)

3)If your partner is still sour about it, try to make her understand. If it's something good for you, chances are that your partner should give in because he or she'd want the best for you. In my opinion, a good partner is someone who'll make you a better person in more ways than one

4) If you really can't come to a consensus. Either you give in and put the issue behind you, or eventually you'll break cos of irreconcilable differences.

Ok end of my effective communication tips. Just my point of view so don't take it that seriously. Kinda morbid zzz.

Nights!

I see you now about the fourth time baby

2011-03-20T05:59:00.008+08:00

hellooo!

20th march 2011- monster weekend but thankfully my project mates have all swopped in and started doing their parts so things aint looking so bad. perhaps it's because the deadlines are closing in.

can't wait for april to come...
it'll mean less busy days are here to stay!
can't wait to relaxxxxx.

this photograph was taken on 10th december 2010 when i met up with shawn tanud and some people from 3b for a meal when he came back from indo. company included huiyuan, xinchyr, valerie, and junxuan (who i had not seen for way longgg, like a few years?! ). beanies ftw. (:

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Some pictures dating back to 2010!

Ning's bday. Pictures from her blog and almighty facebook.

pretty ning~
theme of the party was rock, held at MBS.

didn't take many pictures with my camera that day, just 2 shots of the pretty interior of MBS and jen & i before going up to the room. the room was super awesome and ning ordered pizza, sushi and j.co donuts! yums!

also saw linfeng from 4a whom i have not met for ages. hahaa. he didn't change much!

that day ning's clique really dressed up as rockers and i liked jiaxian's ensemble! huiyuan's hair was also mad cool.

she told me the amount of hairspray used caused hair loss though. hahaa. isn't the hairstyle chiooo? :D

and 2 group pictures!

HAPPY 21st to ning~!

btw, my shoe broke again that day. -.-

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next up... huiyuan's party. photos from almighty facebook too! ;)

yuanz and her handmade miniature top hat. adorable!

her theme was alice in wonderland, and the party was held at aquarius. that day abigail was dressed very nice too, and jiaxian and her bf came as tweedledee and tweedledum.

pictures from jiaxian's facebook.

hahaa. cute couple.

yuanz made this rabbit brooch for all her guests!

i highly suspect the other 3 girls were all dressed as alice! that's chen en at the front~!

i was supposed to be the cheshire cat. had a slight wardrobe malfunction- cos shuning's bf sianwei was wearing the same cat hairband. hahaa! i got it from daiso :P

i didn't stay long that day cos it was new year's eve but i did get to savour her handmade cheesecake cubes and vodka jelly. yums! the jelly was a very refreshing and adorable idea.

like this polaroid shot.
HAPPY BDAY TO HUIYUAN!!!~

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some random night when i met up with pearli, jen and isabel for a meal.

yums! we had pancakes at this cosy place located at the shophouses along dhoby gaut.

thanks pearli for the recommendation!

btw that day pearli was wearing this top with built in beads near her neckline and we were saying she looked like this character from dragonball. all of us ordered savoury pancakes except for isabel who went for sweet pancakes with icecream *yums*

imo, the best dish was pearli's pancakes with garlic prawns!

funny pic of the night. isabel and me doing the same thing. hahaa!

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yepp and here are some randomsss.

a dressin style i'd like to adopt (cos somebody has been saying i wear too little)

paopao nai cha from its homeland- taiwan! i'll be going over soon this coming may! *excited*

baby ian from some time ago, wearing the mittens and socks mr p got him. it says 'messy eater'.

my new bag from a spree. it only cost 27bucks. nice. but the straps weren't very sturdy and broke off but mr p helped me fix it so now i can still use the bag!

japanese snacks my sis brought back from her honeymoon. the waffle biscuit thing is really dope. anyway, she went for the trip before the earthquake. let's not forget to pray for japan; which was already in an economic bubble burst and now, facing even deeper problems. they don't even have the access for fuel to buy the corpses of the casualties. it's scary how natural disasters can just come along and even the most cautious country such as japan can't evade it.

god bless japan. *prays*

a random pic i took of some of my skincare products.
i think i'm abit of a skincare/ cosmetics junkie and it's on the rise. i can see my money flying away.... @_@

i bought this nail colour recently. those are not my nails (can't keep them so long cos they will impede me when eating fried chicken lol), but ain't the colour awesome?

shall end here. 5.58am and i'm turning in only now.

deadlines be goneeee! *cheer*

Short-lived but Beautiful

2011-03-14T23:43:00.002+08:00

Ok.... Another weekend gone... This time it's cos I burnt my weekend away at the NUS Open House 2011. No regrets though, cos it was a good experience overall. Blog about it some other time.

Anyway...

ANGST.

Just want to say I'm having a not-too-good semester... Why? Because I have several projects this semester and some group members are not very cooperative.Hate it when this happens. You think you can be a free-rider? You probably chose the wrong people because my friend and I are gonna graduate after this semester and we don't give a cow's dung and we are not gonna be your SKW- saikang warrior.

And it sure doesn't help that my mom is being all naggy about my new maid being lazy (and yes she is lazy; although I have had a maid for all my life even I have decided not to have a maid anymore cos it is no use paying someone lazy to do your house chores -.-)

Just wanna say I generally enjoy projects but just not with lazy people. If only I can have a whole project group just made up of friends I know.

# end of rant #

well just some awesome bubble pictures I saw online and decided to share here.

hope it brightens up your day!

short-lived but beautiful (:

H.X.X.C

2011-03-11T03:28:00.002+08:00

oh no.
can't sleep again.
think i'm feeling the stress from thinking about my future.
like what's gonna happen after graduation etc.
been sending out resumes

anyway i love the song playing in my blog.
'fuckin' perfect' by pink
ROCKS.
it's not just the tune, but the message it carries.
WATCH IT ON YOUTUBE!
you'll probably feel touched and as usual, i cried. :P

anyway, shall do something lameee here.
to try to 'coax' myself to sleep.

20 random things about H.X.X.C.(2011 March Edition)

#1 - One thing i can't live without (excluding basic stuff like air and water etc): LOVE.

#2 - I drink milk tea (iced) on a very regular basis. Like a cup every two days or EVERYDAY. It's bad for my health but it's like smoking to others- I need it to feel alive.

#3 - Favourite colour: I like all colours and it depends on my mood but I guess black&white. Not pinkkk!

#4 - One strength: I'm a good listener/ can empathise with others easily and genuinely.

#5- One weakness: Sometimes I'm too self-conscious.

#6- Swear words I use: Damn, sh!t, xue te, f*ck (hahahaa i try not to. but I don't use hokkien vulgarities)

#7- Current short term goal: Get a good job which grants me good money and satisfaction

#8- Current long term goal: Good savings plan, investments and travel the world (:

#9- Reminder to self: Repay the kindness my loved ones and people around me has given me (: oh and always be thankful !

#10- One worry: I think it's growing up. Hahahaaa. I wanna make myself useful...

#11- Favourite fashion look: Bohemian. I cannot resist flowers/feathers in hair!But it's a little too overboard to dress like that in SG i guess. Or I'm just too lazy to.

#12- I think I'm becoming increasingly practical, but still very intuitive these days

#13- What I'm willing to splurge a large amount of money on for: Presents for loved ones/ Haircare/ Skincare

#14-I usually wake up feeling: sad or happy (depends on the events of the day; for example sad if it's a siannn day) and skinny or fat (fat if i ate alot last night). i always check my tummy size first thing when i wake up (hahahahaa)

#15- Favourite body parts on myself: Teeth, fingers, arms and boobs

#16- Favourite body parts on guys: Shoulders, arms

#17- Least favourite body part on myself: Legs. hahahaa they're short and i don't like the muscles though some people say it's toned.

#18- Things I try my best to be aware about: Recycling efforts, decreasing energy consumption and conservational efforts. I really try my best to use less plastic bags, turn off lights etc.

#19- I really hope for the world to be a better place! sometimes it really breaks my heart when i learn about sad stuff in the world which must be the case. like how chickens are killed ):

#20- Am I happy with what I have now? Probably around 70-80%. I think life is always evolving so I need to improve/ adapt to stay happy and that there's always room for improvement so I should not be complacent.

p.s. i'm having my period and i have this HUGE HORMONAL PIMPLE on my right cheek. Hate it arggghhh -_- *spams pimple cream*

Gonna go lie on my bed and try to sleep now.

Good night.

xoxo

love drug ♥｡(◕‿◕)｡

2011-03-08T02:45:00.007+08:00

2.37am in the morning. still gotta attend lessons tml and there's lab till 6 *faints*
nonetheless just wanted to record down my feelings during this phase of time
lest i forget
kind of mushy btw. people if you're reading this it's not for your eyes but you'll welcome to check it out anyway.
at your own risk.
i'm happy
our story is unlikely; we didn't have any common platform at all, it just started out of nowhere.
*effervescence* is the word i would use to describe it
having been in a long relationship before i know that love can change
it's scary
but i'm glad that i've got you
i love the way you pop up at my void deck
the way we both love to walk (BMW hahahaa)
our late night outings (despite oppositions lol)
the way i've been conditioned to your 'niaos' and you to mine (it really took some conditioning)
love the way we are spontaneous
the way you always (try your best) to wait up for me (but i'm too nocturnal)
the way you taught me hokkien (i'm still learning)
the way you care
the way you nag (i know you won't believe it but i actually do absorb what you're sayin and reaaallyyy process it)
the way you never allow me to leave any unhappiness unspoken
the way you want me to be happy
the way you can be thrifty towards everything else but not to me
love the way you love me
it's nice (:
sometimes i can be quite a female chauvinist pig *in mandarin it means da nu ren*
but i know some part in me wants to be loved
happy that i am
blessed♥

oh i like the shoulders too

Joy's Bday 2010

2011-03-07T00:07:00.002+08:00

After hearing some wise words from my BIL (bro in law), really wish that I'll get a job which fulfils not only my own needs but also the greater good. I don't want to wake up everyday dreading to go to work! God bless me; hope I'll get a job I like!

Some randoms....

My current phone, *zhng*-ed with Daiso crystals... Can't wait to upgrade cos of the lack of message space. I'm generally sentimental (hahahaa) and like to keep messages.

The usual lunch I have in NUS when I can't escape from school :P
Subway (usually a wrap) and Yakun (iced milk tea).
Btw I'm now using the Coach wristlet Jen and my JC friends gave me last year.
And yes, I still read Seventeen magazine. Never-too-old! :D

Just a picture of my nephew loll. He talks to me in googoogaga language.
P.S. Still not feeling maternal instincts.

Recently my cat's been crawling into my bed to sleep beside me, how *sweet*.
And she's also been balding quite abit ):
Read online that it's cat OCD: obsessive compulsive disorder where they'll overlick themselves.

A shot of my newly pedicured toes. Nail colour is 'Quite contrary berry'. Haaa how cute.
Love the feeling of dead skin being *professionally* scrubbed off my feet. Pedicures are expensive but really quite a treat!

And some pictures from my (second) sis's burfday last year...

Steamboat... Something I can't resist! :D

In the kitchen... U'd always find:

Just some shots of my sis:

Another burfday~

I can't remember what cake it was... In some pictures it looks like a chestnut cake while in others it looks like a mille crepe cake. Ah well.

*end*

Monday Blues

2011-02-28T00:26:00.064+08:00

SAD!!!!
It's Monday again :(

I don't have to head to school on Mondays but I'm reminded of the fact that another weekend has gone by.

NOOOO!

And my study week has gone by just like that. *snaps finger*

D:

Oh well.

I've gotten over the sadness.

Just changed the template of my blog again (fickle me) and now I'm gonna blog about....

( Hee hee this picture is out of point but I just love the movie 'Up' )

Yes...

Yumz!

As a true blue Cantonese, I am a loyal fan of dim sum. Good dimsum in Singapore is relatively pricey, unlike in Hongkong where you can get good dim sum at a more affordable price.

This is a picture of the dimsum Zhangquan and I had for breakfast when we visited Hongkong in May last year!

And just some funny comics to share... lol~

Humour regarding China's large population hahaa.

So my family and I went to try out Taste Paradise at Ion Orchard! This lunch outing dates back to November last year.

The atas-looking restaurant.

The attendees. You do realise only the females in the family were there, because it was a girls' day out. The poor males missed out on a good meal! Bwahahaa.

A very nice group pic ((: Which I love!

And a collage of the food we had!

Yummy... I loved the carrot cake, both types of the buns and the chinese tea to wash it all down ^^

After the food we went to shop around Orchard for abit.

Ahhh the Christmas lights and ambience... I love it!